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December 23rd, 2017 #Dear2017, #Idoubted my own strength, but I still exist. I am beginning to thrive. "I didn't know my own strength And I crashed down, and I tumbled But I did not crumble I got through all the pain" Stronger than before, #DanielleElizabeth #whitneyhouston #ididntknowmyownstrength

December 21, 2017 #Dear2017 , #Ipretended he hadn't broken me. I was a healer, a gift I knew I had. A continual urge to fix people, fix their circumstances, be the answer. I pretended with each strike of this narcissist that I was utterly and completely broken until one night last year. I didn't want my life. If it was going to be these constant reopening of wounds, I didn't want it. The Creator could have it back because frankly what I had been doin wasn't living anyway. I had simply been existing, absorbing each blow to psyche and bandaging the wounds with insufficient scotch tape and paper towels. He had BROKEN the healer with purpose and intent and accurate venomous attacks. Manually and calculatedly tried to dismantle my life when I was no longer of utility to him. But I pretended he hadn't broken me. I soldier through until I just collapsed. 2017, you brought the pretending to an end. You brought the realization that I needed to heal me. I was the one this time who required loving salve and gentle care. You brought to my attention that my unforgiveness towards myself only reopened old wounds. 2017, I've stop pretending and started healing and rebuilding. Healers need healing, too. Solemnly, #DanielleElizabeth

December 20th, 2017 #Dear2017, #Irealized my inner world creates my outer world. Inside my cocoon I asked for 2017 to morph/change me and that it did. Each challenge this year brought, I had to dig inside, deep inside to rise to the occasion. Each time something didn't work out, each time something with my children challenged or saddened me, each time I hurt, struggled, felt inadequate I had to reach for tools inside. When relationships confused me or brought me pain, I found healing inside myself. The more I worked on me, the more my life reflected it. People didn't stop hurting me, I stopped being around people prone to hurt me. I didn't stop having challenges with parenting or living with my mother, I stopped responding in a negative or detrimental way. I started to rebuild my trust in myself. Trust that I could and would make appropriate decision. My world and the chaos that had been there, had eroded my faith in myself. The more my faith in myself increased, the more my life changed, the more empowered I felt. It's not everyday I feel all peaches and cream. But I realized I am more empowered than I have felt for years. Confidently, #DanielleElizabeth

December 19th, 2017 #Dear2017, I realized that I am: Magical Powerful Resilient Gifted Loving Beautiful Ascending Soft-hearted I also realized: I have high standards that are unforgiving I am hurting, so I am like walking wound. I am distrustful because so many have broken my trust. I am a work in progress. I am hard to love. I am hard.... Honestly, #DanielleElizabeth

December 18th, 2017 #Dear2017, These memes made me laugh. #Ilaughed not because they were humorous. I laughed at the irony of it all. I laughed because I felt like my growth would be like in the movies, lots of supportive people, champagne glasses toasting my success. It couldn't be further from the truth. It's been a bootcamp with the main mantra of #metamorphme2017. Morph me you did. I didn't emerge from this year without struggling. Struggling with my attraction to emotionally unavailable people, to learn how to forgive myself and others, to stop looking to others for validation, to push back from tables where love is no longer served and that not everyone can love you the way you want them to. I thought #metamorphme2017 would bring me love, understanding, a squad, an epiphany. It did. How ironic, #DanielleElizabeth

December 16th 2017 #December2017 I wanted to be chosen. I never was.... so I had to choose myself. It hurts initially. I wanted them to choose me. It would've made me feel good. But, I know in the long run, this is better for me. I want to choose me... even if they don't. Doesn't make it easy though. Closing this book, #DanielleElizabeth

#December2017 #Igained a sense of true #spirituality. The same practiced by my #ancestors. Blessings, #DanielleElizabeth

A chibi of Dani and Salem being... Dani and Salem, super spoopy!