sometimes i miss the timeloop. i don't remember if i've already sent something like that before, but i do miss it. the ability to just redo your fuck ups is pretty good, isn't it? just follow the perfect script, and everything will turn out alright. i will never turn to wishcraft again to do that, though. i will never wish for another timeloop, no matter how much i miss it. stagnating, unchanging, rotting, breaking, repeating
speaking of "wishcraft", i'm now less scared to use the word "wish" in casual sentences. it still makes me nervous, and i would never seriously and genuinely wish for something like i did in my source ever again, but my headmates not being scared to use it have helped me with my fears a bit. i still usually replace it in the text messages though. because i can. and because i have hashtag source trauma. i guess . ^-^