#ineffable angst

And in that moment, just as they were about to pass the last gate and be out of Heaven, away from the thuderous storm of angels chasing them, finally safe from the deadly miraculous gold of their weapons, Crowley heard the subtle whistle of a solitary arrow.

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• Such Good Luck •

After a little delay, due to a misadventure that happened to me this weekend: after a terrible morning blackout (more than one, actually) my monitor passed away😭 I tried everything, from contacting support to replacing parts. No way.

It was also quite new and, in the end, I had to replace it. BUT since things never work easily for me, my first alternative didn't fit with my current pc so I had to come back to the shop and take another one. NOW, it's finally working✨

So, to celebrate, I worked all afternoon to deliver it to you all tonight! The (angst) show must go on!!

ps. Special thanks to all my supporters, especially those who contact me on IG to send me some love, kind words AND SO MANY ADORABLE CATS PICS😭🩷😺

There's a lot of debate about who fell first, who fell harder or who loves who more. Here's my thoughts on it:

They both love each other deeply and equally, but are forced to hide it (obviously) but in my opinion while crowley is hiding his feelings from the outside world, aziraphale is hiding his feelings from himself (to better hide it from heaven/hell)

So when they kiss, for Crowley, it is 'after 6000 years, finally I am brave enough to do this', and for aziraphale, it is fully awakening the deeply repressed love and desire he has for Crowley. And for a moment, he let's himself feel it and holds Crowley as they kiss. It almost changes his mind about leaving, but it definitely changes him fundamentally. He can't hide it from himself anymore, he needs crowley, and there's a name to it now. He loves him and doesn't ever want to let go of that.

"Do it again, please right now" because you're all I've ever wanted, and I couldn't face that until now.

Do it again, but I have to leave you because I never want to not feel this way. I never want to hide Us again. Not from myself and not from heaven, hell and humanity.

Scorn and the Saint-Maker is a murder mystery/ineffable husbands romance/who-turned-them-human Good Omens fanfic, set at a university in Scotland, with lots of (as-yet skippable) level-5 smut, ✨sexy maths✨ (reportedly), and one trans angel

Of course Tumblr's link block got fucky again when I wanted to post. Of course. (And yeah, I know it's because of AO3's request throttling, but it's still Tumblr's fault for not making their post UI able to deal with that at all. A new request every time someone pastes a link in the post UI is just irresponsible coding tbh. GROW BETTAH)

not 100% sure how we got here, but was talking about trying to relay that quote in the post ("you will always need to leave and i will never let you go.") to aziraphale and crowley, and i was told to post my thoughts on it on here

to aziraphale, crowley is the one who seems to need to leave. he has been trying to escape, from heaven and from their responsibilities and from the plan. crowley, in aziraphale's mind, is trying to escape, but aziraphale is clinging to both him and heaven, not wanting to let him go

to crowley, aziraphale is the one trying to leave. he's trying to abandon crowley, leave and go to heaven where crowley cannot follow, and all crowley can do is beg for him to stay and hope he isn't abandoned once again

but in reality, neither of them can see the truth of the situation because both of them are too clouded by their perceptions

crowley is incapable of returning to heaven, just as aziraphale is incapable of leaving

the bird tries to fly away, desperately wanting the dog to fly with him but not understanding that the dog does not have the wings to follow. the dog does not understand that the bird is waiting for him to follow, and all he perceives is the bird flying away from him as he struggles to make him stay