#impulsive spending

I hadn't spent a lot yet but it was escalating in frequency and amount I was writing off "not a lot"

And I have had serious issues with reckless and impulsive spending before. It's a serious issue with me. I cannot be trusted with money because I will spend it because buying things feels good in the moment

When I noticed I was slipping into old habits I deleted the banking app from my phone and decided that I need to check with my husband before each purchase again, no matter how small, because that's the level of oversight I need.

And at first I was beating myself up about this but I messaged a friend and she was like "you are being WAY to hard on yourself" and I really thought about it and realised she was right

Yes it's not good to fall into impulsive spending but I was treating it like I was 21 again and spending money I literally didn't have in the bank to get a piercing on a whim

That's not what happened

What happened was I noticed I was slipping into old habits. I identified how to prevent it from getting worse and implemented the fixes and boundaries that I needed. And I did it before it was an actual problem for us.

That's not a failure that's a win. That's something to take pride in.

Right- so, this still falls under the real-life pics category, but it also relates to my otherkin stuff. As a result, I'll crosspost it on both accounts by starting here and then expanding on the symbolic significance on my Otherkin / mental health blog, @astertimberwolf . I'll post a few extra pics of the "human life" box (the one with the Celtic knot) and its contents here, since some items are RWBY and Whiterose themed.

Background: I got them for myself a little over a week ago, from a local market in Scotland.

The whole thing went down as follows...

Useless-Lesbian-Weiss (ULW for short): "Wow, these boxes are so pretty, but I don't have money / can't afford them... Dang it."

Friend: "I can get you one if you want, but only one."

ULW: "Are you sure? You don't have to."

Friend: "It's okay. What are friends for? :)"

ULW: "Uhhhh" *internally panicking because she likes multiple of them and can't decide*

Friend: "...The wolf one then?"

ULW: *spots the rose themed one* "Oh my God, I want that one too. Why am I like this- how much is that one?"

Seller / Artist: "£10, while the big ones are £20."

ULW: *panics more because she knows it's a bargain compared to Swiss prices for hand-made merch* "OKAY, HOLD ON, THERE IS AN ATM OVER THERE!!!"

Friend: *laughs* "What are you doing? Didn't you say that you didn't have any money-"

ULW: *already darted towards the ATM, pushed in the card, punched in the PIN and withdrew £50. Rushes back to the seller with x5 £10 bills, whipped out in a fan formation, handing them over aggressively to the seller* "HERE. SHUT UP AND TAKE MY MONEY!!"

Seller: "Uhhh..."

Friend: "..."

... And that's how I ended up with all 4 of them. :D

It seems like women exchanged baskets for shopping bags since the time when humanity was a hunter-gatherer society. I know there were women who hunted then too and the gender roles weren't so strict but it's just an observation.