#impulse control problems

I hadn't spent a lot yet but it was escalating in frequency and amount I was writing off "not a lot"

And I have had serious issues with reckless and impulsive spending before. It's a serious issue with me. I cannot be trusted with money because I will spend it because buying things feels good in the moment

When I noticed I was slipping into old habits I deleted the banking app from my phone and decided that I need to check with my husband before each purchase again, no matter how small, because that's the level of oversight I need.

And at first I was beating myself up about this but I messaged a friend and she was like "you are being WAY to hard on yourself" and I really thought about it and realised she was right

Yes it's not good to fall into impulsive spending but I was treating it like I was 21 again and spending money I literally didn't have in the bank to get a piercing on a whim

That's not what happened

What happened was I noticed I was slipping into old habits. I identified how to prevent it from getting worse and implemented the fixes and boundaries that I needed. And I did it before it was an actual problem for us.

That's not a failure that's a win. That's something to take pride in.

I now officially have 16 unread books sitting at home.

I just bought a 6-book boxset today.

I may or may not have a problem.

If I really regret it when I have it in hand i can just… keep it and not use it even if that feels like a waste

I finally found a ‘winning’ Gluten Free Choc Chip Cookie Recipe. !!!! YaY! 

[[[i only baked one tray. the rest I ate as cold dough. All.of.it. ]]]

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