#imissyousomuchithurts

@nfrealmusic #howcouldyouleaveus I got this picture in my room and it kills me But I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing Now a relationship is something we won't ever have Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had? What you don't realise and what you not grasping That I was nothing but a kid who couldn't understand I ain't gon' say that I forgive you cause it hasn't happened I thought that maybe I feel better as time passes If you really cared for me, then where you at then? Why would you leave us? Why would you leave us? How could you leave us here? How would you leave us? Why would you leave us? Hey Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you It took everything inside of me to not scream at your funeral Sitting in my chair, that person talking was pitiful I wish you were here mama but every time I picture you All I feel is pain, I hate the way I remember you Don't know if you hear me or not, but if you still watching why #mum #imissyousomuchithurts https://www.instagram.com/p/CECtFzsnJGRYhaEM_3_LR37YSRlcRXdYeaM10s0/?igshid=1n20g6c5kvrj8

I miss you so much. I wish you were here to guide me through this. I wish you were here to play a game of cards with, to watch jeopardy or house hunters or some cooking show. I wish you knew that I moved back, that I have my license now, I have a car now. I wish you knew the tattoo on my arm is your drawing, that it’s my smallest but most significant. I wish you were here to play with my nephew, your grandson, I wish you knew how good I’m doing but also how awful I’m doing because you’re not here. You’re not here but I’ll never forgive myself for not being there. I love you so much it hurts.