#imfinallyfree

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Today marks 4 Years (and 2 Days) FREE of something that I once wanted to die from. Something that was Eating me Alive. I no longer worry about what the hell I Eat or Drink because I’m FREE from this sh*t. I deprived my Body since I was 3 Years Old. I’m so beyond Proud of Myself. I don’t care about my Weight. The Scale is SO much more Heavier than I could ever possibly bare. If my Doctor asks for a Weight, to this Day, I still weigh Backwards. What is the point of obsessing over something you have NO Control over?! I haven’t touched Laxatives unless it was for a Procedure. I haven’t Starved this Body because Food is just too good!!!! I haven’t forced Myself sick. That Anxiety isn’t worth the Pain. Of Myself or others. I know that I can never reverse what I’ve done to my Body. Osteoporosis, Brain Damage, Heart Issues, Infertility, Forming Crystals, Acid Reflux.... The List goes on and it is ugly. This is NOT something to joke about. I have lost many Friends due to this Disorder from Complications, Relapses, and never making it to a Treatment Center. I’ve also damaged Relationships because of my Behavior. I will never forget saying how much I wanted to be FREE!!!! Now, I have it Tattooed on my Wrist. #ImFinallyFREE #NEDA #OneDayAtATime #GratefulForThisLife #ProjectHEAL @neda @projectheal https://www.instagram.com/p/Bvir3Whhk7p/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1vbggjr1qqmf4

So, tomorrow is officially my last day in high school (technically is was Monday, but I have finals I had to come back for). I know everyone's sad because of their own reasons, but I cant find that in me. High school is ending, and I couldn't he happier.