Nov 10, 2024
iām so emotionally unwell need a girl to come over and treat me right before i put an end to it šš
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iām so emotionally unwell need a girl to come over and treat me right before i put an end to it šš
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I hate it when adults say ur too young to be stressed like ok margaret why don't YOU tell me why I wanna fukin cry every .20 seconds and have anxiety abt like idk everything ???? I mean I thought it was bc I was sTrEsSeD but yOu'Re ObViOuSlY the professional here so why don't u just go ahead and tell me what I'm aCtUaLlY feeling
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Iām done with this one #malefigure #ceramics #sculpture #imtired #imdonewithlife (at USM 3-D Art building)
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TL;DR: Iām a disgrace and I know it. I wonāt ever not be.
Note:Ā Mental breakdown had to go somewhere. So it went here. If yaāll know me in real life and wanna chat.... feel free to. If I start talking about anything that isnāt about this despite you asking- thatās what weāre talking about.
Second note: Normally I donāt post these. Sorry for ruining someoneās day.
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Itās that time of the day again where I literally spend 3 nights now realizing Iām an utter disgrace to my family. Not only just for existing. No. It gets better.
Life choices Iāve made donāt coenside with my familyās ideals. Small things like where I live. How often I call home (and i literally call any chance I get- which sadly isnāt often, but im trying!). What I talk about. My leasure time hobbies. All those. Nah. Donāt work. Not in the slightest. Medium life choices like my college major. Iām not a metilurgical or chemical engineer, or even a biotechnology major anymore.... Iām a psychology major. A good field, mind you, but not biotech like I originally set out to be.... and not engineering like the LITERAL REST OF MY FAMILY :D Ha!!! Hahaha.... Itās sad. And BIG life choices. Like. HEY. My gender.... My Name. How I look. How I act. How I am Being Me. NONE. NONE of those are acceptable. The fact that Iām non-binary and want they/them pronouns. I like my birthname but I also donāt ? But godforbid I try to change it... I donāt actĀ ālike a proper girlā and heaven forbid I actĀ ālike a proper human beingā (Iāve lost how to human. Iāve just lost it. Somewhere. Like 6 years ago.) and function. None of those are acceptable.
None of them. I gotta be a straight person. Gotta get straight As on EVERYTHING (im not kidding) I do in school. Gotta be able to talk to EVERYONE (i can barely talk to my close friends). Gotta be able to wake up early in the morning and FunCTioN right off the bat! Gotta be happy all the time. Canāt do drugs. Canāt have a drink on occasion. Canāt take medication except for Zyrtec (my allergy medication that THE DOCTOR said I DONT NEED ANYMORE) which is totally fine! Canāt see a therapist anymore cuzĀ āI donāt need one at allā. So what have I done? Oh, ya know, literally everything Iāve been told I canāt do. Why? Iām living. And whereās it gotten me? Down quite a pit. So letās get one thing straight, the only straight thing Iāll ever have; Iām Courtney. Iām gay af. Nonbinary, which defaults to everything being a lil bit gay at least. Iāve got dyed hair. I like alochol. Iāve delved in things like weed to see how it is. Everyone has. I own a bearded dragon. Iām living in a house away from my parents with awesome people. Iām a psychology major! Itās an ACTUALLY GOOD FIELD. Iām trying my damn best to be a human. All that. All of that and much more makes me an utter disgrace to my immediete family. Let alone my friends and other family. And normally I donāt put this stuff here anymore but... it had to go somewhere. Iāll keep being the disgrace. Iāll keep being me. Donāt worry Tumblr. Weāve got one more huge fuckup in the world whoās gonna change it for the better somehow! While I travel along that path, I know Iām gonna be making enemies wherever I turn. Someoneās gotta hate somebody. Luckily for all them, Iāve got more people who hate me than friends, and I know em by name. So letās add more to the list as I continue to ruin more of the life that people want me to live as I find the life Iām carving out for myself in this big pit. Oh, and, if anybody finds a sandworm they arenāt riding... I could use some spice in my life. Something. Something new. Or at least some consistency.
sadness
you: what do u tell others about wht u feel?
me: i tell others im tired...but in fact im tired.
i tell people tht i will be fine tomorrow bu i know...tomorrow will be worse.
you: so...u lie?
me: i tell lies everyday...and i know i will never be able to stop my self.
Me bc summer is ending....