#ifs work

Hey, July, it's me again. Big Birthday this year, Another year... We're forty now. A little older, a little wiser, and feeling more alive than ever, right? We made it. I know things were rough back then. For years, even. Remember when you wanted to quit, when we thought we'd never be okay, that life was always going to be a struggle?

It's been a long journey, full of tough times, lots of silent struggles, lessons we didn't ask for, and pain we didn't think we could handle. It felt like too much so many times. Always second-guessing our choices.

But somehow, we kept going.

I'm not saying everything's perfect now. It's not. We still have bad days. We're still healing and growing. I still feel the past sometimes. But it's better now, and I'm better. We are better. Unlearning so much and learning who we are and who we wanna be. I know you'd be proud of how far we've come. And I'm proud of you too.

The inner voices or anxious feelings I get tend to be old ways and voices of toxic family. It's a continuous journey, navigating through joyful occasions can & may unexpectedly trigger remnants of past pains surfacing as inner voices and anxious feelings, echoing the toxic remnants of our familial past. Acknowledging and confronting these haunting echoes may be challenging, but confronting them head-on leads to healing and liberation from the grasp of generational trauma.

Through self-awareness and self-compassion, I have begun to rewrite MY story and pave the way for a brighter, more empowering future free from the shadows of the past.

Today while we unboxed our new spa I suddenly felt mad at myself for buying this. Like it was an irresponsible purchase. It's common to experience moments of doubt or guilt when treating myself to something special, as old patterns of self-criticism may emerge. But i derailed my own thoughts and Remembered, that investing in self-care is vital for my well-being and growth. By challenging these negative beliefs and practicing self-compassion, I am taking essential steps towards self-love and breaking free from the grip of guilt. Embrace the joy of pampering myself without judgment, knowing that prioritizing my mental and emotional health is a responsible choice in my healing journey.