This is not to show a progression in weight loss. I'm doing pretty okay there. Gotta get my eating habits in check and I know I'll hit my goals. These pics are about this shirt specifically. I got this shirt back in 2017 for running a race and I absolutely hated how this shirt fit me. Before last year I was super top heavy. Part of the Mega Jugs Crew and all that. After my reconstructive surgery I was upset because I felt like I lost a big part of me and I did. Call it vanity I could give two shyts about your opinion in this matter. It's my body and I was not happy with what happened to me. I've hidden myself trying to work thru my issues with my new physical appearance. Very few people have seen me. I know how to hide my body pretty damn well. Today I put this shirt on for the first time in years and it actually fits me. While I have a way to go in my feelings today was the first time in a long time I didnt feel anger about the reconstruction. Baby steps right. I still cry when I think about everything I went thru but I'm happy I'm here and can cry about it. Also happy that im getting better with my new normal. They dont tell you how to feel after all the cancer is gone and your finally able to process what you went thru it's okay to not be okay and it's okay to feel what you're feeling. It's hard to ask for help sometimes when your village doesn't understand what you're going through. But I'm good and happy for the people that are around me. They helped in ways they could and that helped me heal physically, mentally and emotionally. #GodsGotMe #FuckCancer #WorkingonMe #IFought #ISurvived #NewGoalsCreated #SelfExaminationSavedMe #checkYourTatas #IAm1In8 https://www.instagram.com/p/B7tA4JGgejL/?igshid=3bbf5hrycbfd
