#ideations

2020 vs 2025

Living a double life vs living my truth.

Being depressed all the time to the point of SI or Ideations vs manageable MDD which is the medical diagnosis for massive depression cases or Major Depressive Disorder.

Living life with a well paid job but it was inconsistent and i was very unhappy vs working for way less pay but my happiness is through the roof in comparison.

2020 was a year and a half before coming out vs 2025 I am am 4.2 yrs out, 2.2 yrs on HRT.

As promised, a glimpse into my efforts of designing a hoverbike. For the current issue i’m working on, I wanted the Scowlers to have a vehicle to get them to and fro. I already have a vehicle called the Hellbat (which you’ll all see sometime) but I wanted to give them something they could patrol in. Giving them a car felt too.....pedestrian. To which I settled on a hover bike.

My big problem with a lot of hover bikes in fiction is that they often look and feel like slightly bigger mopeds but without wheels.

To which I think is completely lame.

The real requirements I had were that i didn’t want my bike to look too close to either the bikes from Akira or the Lawmasters from Judge Dredd. My first attempts (the big illustrations with Scowlers on them) were channeling in the Tron Legacy bikes. They were nice and all, but I wanted bikes that had a very definite front and back and these didn’t have that. And I wanted some sort of machinery in place of the wheels that looks like that’s what’s causing it to hover.

it'll be wednesday two hours passed noon and the walk will be long

at least, the doctor listened and so this will really confirm if her concerns

are malignant or benign

still, she feared otherwise the subject of mutilating her body especially for naught

was worse than dying

a million ideas swirling in her mind like a catastrophic whirlpool the unknown looming

further compounding a dark cloud

she hated being alive but she didn't want to die like this

For the final push we were tasked with creating a analogue portfolio.

For my grad project I created a magic shop and all the wares that go in it. I started with wanting to make a portfolio that showcased the work I had made for the 2025 grad gallery. To do this I thought of how it would be displayed, and decided on a magic grimoire (a magic book filled with magic knowledge) as it would be a cute way to tie everything together I played around with page layout by making a template and trying different things with it. I also attempted to use some motifs from the my grad show to create a border of sorts, will continue to refine

With knowing we are going for cuteness and a happiness journal, one might remember that journals can sometimes get boring, so having a sense of guilt to return to the cute companion to care for it or interact with it, just because it is cute. HOWEVER life is hard enough and we don't need virtual souls on our hands, so while the cute companions may be sad or mad at ones interaction they WILL NOT DIE. This is supposed to be chill.

Another aspect I'd like to incorporate to encourage repeated use of the app if a wall of fuzzies, so all the images (and text attached) one uploads will be compiled into an easy to view area, with a monthly notification prompting you to revisit your warm and happy moments.

I like pink and softer aesthetics so my app will also emulate that color scheme, with a more hand drawn looking typeface.