I thought i was fine. If i just ran like this forever i would never feel it. Like it couldn’t catch me. I couldn’t… i couldn’t run forever. You took my breath away. You took my nights and my dreams with it. God knows i tried. To stay with you and to leave you and none of them worked well. I miss the rain, i miss the rainbows and sunsets and the sea and the shore and the sound of the waves. I miss the breakfasts and the bereakups. I miss being angry with you. I miss making up and i miss crying because of you and for you. I don’t miss missing you. I don’t want to miss you. I am tired of missing you. Feels like forever. Like half of my life i waited for you without knowing and the other half was even longer. The days didn’t pass by, time didn’t fly. Nothing got better. And now, i am too scared to find the answers. Either way, it hurts. No answer is good enough and no answer is right… or wrong. Please come and hold my hand so that i know i won’t be alone anymore, so that i know you will be there when i go to bed. So that i will know all the answers if that is what i need…

Ang sakit pala kapag sa bestfriend mo na nanggaling na "option ka lang".