#i will keep trying

Sometimes I do get so exhausted by just constantly trying and failing to manage my adhd. Sometimes I wish I were just lazy because at least if I were just lazy I could in fact change this aspect of myself instead of just having to work with it. I know lots of lazy people who've snapped out of it one day and turned their life around but for me though I try I really do try it is so hard to manage some days and so hard to form good habits that don't eventually falter and fail after a couple of weeks or a month. I'm just tired. I wish I could try medication again.