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if my ex has bothered you abt me, please read this (and tell him to leave me alone)

1.none of my friends look at his blog now. or at least i've told them not to. two used to occasionally, without me asking for it, and would randomly give me updates. i told them both to stop months ago. another offered to look for me and i said no. if other people look i don't know about it and dont encourage it. i have never told anyone to talk to him, or talk about this situation publicly or to others, on my behalf.

2.i don't want to look at his blog. i do not tell people about him. he seems to think i am like him. he's forgetting that when we knew each other, he was the one going around telling most people about the people that hurt me (which i did appreciate at the time!). it is not something i do because it's hard for me. he's also forgetting that i told him i do not want to look at or think about ppls blogs who have blocked me or hurt me any more, because i don't want to stress myself out like that.

3.the only time i talk to a new person about it, is when they are His friend or mutual and they approach me wanting to hear my side. i do not approach people to tell them. i only talk to people who are already involved, because he involved them. i only talk to them about details pertinent to the situation. (i do not tell them anything that is his private business, because regardless of how he's treated me, he trusted me. i know he does not extend me the same courtesy.)

4.weird that he's accusing me of being a stalker when multiple people he talks to have confirmed he stalks my blog, and other blogs that have him blocked, and that he talks about me all the time. i think he should stop doing that before even thinking of accusing me of stalking him with no proof except "people showed you my posts" (people who were literally mutuals with him)

5.i did something wrong bc i said i didn't want to use a drama channel (it was for talking about tumblr drama btw! not just regular venting. so literally stupid nothing stuff, and we barely used it) any more. because apparently it is impossible to revoke consent on such a situation almost a Year after the channel was made. and also it's somehow my fault he assumed he wasnt allowed to vent anywhere i could see, and didn't ask me, and never told me.

6. for how much he's insisting he wanted me to tell him when i don't like something, he is so mad that i told him i didn't like the drama channel. pick one. you can't be angry about both. do you think that maybe this kind of contradictory behaviour made it difficult for me to tell you things? also i definitely did tell him i didn't like aram a million times, pretty much as soon as i realised i liked sr way more. but i also told him i preferred it over how upset he got when we played sr, when i realised that. somehow he's angry about this too..? how am i supposed to tell him i don't like something if no matter how soon i tell him it, he has a problem? (why did He not have to tell me things immediately? he hid things from me while saying nothing was wrong until his big freakout rant at the end, and now he tells people complaints about me he's never told me - like the vent channel thing - and my cat being abused??.)

7.He's just using my own google drive screenshots for proof that i don't explain what he's done wrong? the screenshots in which i state that i don't want to explain it any more? i will add a few screenshots under the cut to look at, as a treat.

8.hey. have you considered leaving me the fuck alone? have you considered not taking things out of context to tell people how horrible i am for saying something you agreed with, or you initiated, or you knew was a joke? have you considered that your problems aren't my fault and might be because of your own actions? are you just desperate for my attention? well i hope you enjoy.

9.the link on my pinned only exists because he didn't leave me alone, it has pictures of it. but i contemplated removing it when i heard nothing about him for a little while because i do not want to have it in my pinned if he is just living his life and leaving me alone - but then that was not the case. i literally told him when it happened that i was not going to talk about it on tumblr or vague, and yet he immediately started posting about me and telling people (even while we were still mutuals. i saw those posts!). i have not brought him up first in conversation with literally ANYONE ON TUMBLR since like, one person shortly after i made that post. (actually i vaguely mentioned him once but it was about something random, and not by name/url. nothing about anything drama-y.) i do NOT discouraged anyone from being friends with him, in fact i have told people i am okay with them still being friends with him and think he still deserves friends - if they stopped being his friend it is their choice. and i probably don't even talk to them.

10.whos the person that said this? woaaaaahhhh what a post i agree with it so much. guess we'll never know bc he deleted his account

i cannot emphasize how much i have tried to tolerate his behaviour through this whole thing and not say anything or react. i do not want to cause more drama for him and explain all the details to everyone and the world. i just want him to live his life away from me and stop trying to make people hate me because he's mad i decided there was no way we could be happy and remain friends. there are plenty of things i have not shared because i don't fucking want to tell people!!! i'm not like him!

i just want him to live his life and be happy even while i know we are not compatible as people. if he cared about me, and about my happiness, and respected my choices, i do not understand why or how it's hard to accept he deeply hurt me, stop looking at my blog and leave me alone. for a while there i literally didn't talk about him, and was doing so well not thinking about him, because it seemed like he wasn't doing anything and had started moving on. i would love to do that again. so if he doesn't want me to be sooo mean to him or say anything then maybe he should .. leaaaaaveeee me aloneeeeee

but i'm sure he's going to accuse me of being horrible and unfair for making this post. just like how it's unfair he cant make posts about me (even though he has so that's just a lie for no reason) :/

anyway, here's some more things he can show his counselor under the cut.