#hyper-responsibility

they told me my job description but i think i’ve got it wrong. they said i was supposed to man the lighthouse and save lost ships from going down. but every time i saw the ships i forgot about the light. i dove headfirst into the sea and swam to save their life. i drowned us both in the process; the ships never found the shore. i ended up helping less when i meant to be helping more. i think when they told me to save people with my light, i mistook their words and tried to save people with my life. i know i should have turned the light on, i know i should have taken their advice, but i don’t know what love is if it is not sacrifice.

Me finding out hyper-responsibility and responsibility OCD are a thing 😐 never read about a disorder/behavior that so specifically matched my weird f**king problems.