#hurur

I finally caught up to where my magical journals, since I started Antic Delights way back in ’13 or so, are transcribed. Today, I thought, “I’ll see about that really old journal–or the first one in the shelf.” It dates probably from ’94 to ’96 or so–and it demonstrates I’ve always been eclectic, trying to synthesize and make sense of everything. But also, my Talker felt the need to list all the…

I fear my pronouns will be all over the place in this one. I suspect they often are anyway. I have thought about how to get at mûl-ôl without the topic derailing and tangenting into half a dozen other topics. If the psychic censor, if halthaya and hurur distract us from the magical and from the Otherworlds, if they lead us to forget the magical and the Otherworlds, then mûl-ôl is the experience…

I’m up at [café] on a Friday, finding myself otherwise free. I’m glad to say I framed the Morrigan blessing I received from Morpheus for supporting The Book of the Great Queen. I’ve placed it behind _______. On its own, it fills in on the altar nicely—the cherry wood frame working well, and I suppose it’s almost Saintly icon-like, but without the queer sense of Otherworldly guilt saints, Jesus,…

I feel out of sorts today. I went to bed too late, and I have enough tension about jaw, neck, shoulder that I’m just trying to unclench and to stop poking at the gums and wisdom tooth with my tongue. That said, hello, world. I’m internalizing enough stress that I’m not aware how much I want to relax. I’ve had enough “crying” or “laughing” fits that I—well, not “fits” but spasms—that I know it’s…

Apocalypse, the Future, Capitalism

Apocalyptic Paradoxes Leaving the movie I was struck by the fact that most of the stories people in our culture tell about organized resistance against oppression are set in dystopias created in the wake of a cataclysm. And indeed, apocalyptic events seem to be the only thing most people believe can bring an end to capitalism. From people praying and organizing to bring about the collapse of…

Running Hot, Professional Halthaya, Magic

At the moment, my desire and will feels too ejaculatory, suppressed and under pressure, and I feel unsure how to release, channel, express those forces. My mind wants to run hot & rampant and layer everything with words.

I know I overthink and overstress myself in regards to challenges like these—I remember slacking and procrastinating from boredom and depressiveness in late elementary school,…

I did not get the position…, though they apparently “like me.” Whether that translates into anything, we’ll see.

I find myself dwelling still on the interview—it’s still fresh—and I do not want to. I think about my spelling for the position and the interview. So I will spell for new opportunities. And I will enjoy this afternoon—

It’s easy for me to get caught up in my storytelling and…

Tie me, Bite me: Name a kink.

Knife play, thus blood play as well. 

Tempo: Sweet and slow or hard and fast?

Depends on the partner but I do enjoy sweet and slow with the occasional begging from below. 

Tasty: Chocolate? Whipped cream? Do you use food with sex?

I do enjoy a good dessert. 

Sheets: Are silk sheets sexy?

I find them more sensual than sexy, but I enjoy them all in the same ways. 

Turn On: Name a turn on.