#elthil

[NB:Firelight, Candles, Time, Ritual]

I’ve noted that pulling down the light—or even calling it forth from myself—goes more easily when I have light present. Of course, sunlight is fantastic for this, and there’s a reason that “solar adorations” have been a thing (let alone the moon!). But candles also help. It makes me wonder that having light on hand makes it easier to work with “light” and energy otherwise in that the candle’s…

Body, Fetch, Talker, God Soul, and: Part 4: More about Talker

In Magick Without Tears, Crowley advises to begin memorizing the Qabala while also internalizing and applying it to one’s daily life: There is no better way of training the memory than the practice of the Holy Qabalah. The whole mechanism of memory depends on joining up independent data. You must go on adding a little to little, always joining the simple impressions by referring them to others…

Microcosms, Desiring Machines, Sex, Pressure

I did some simple med’n and relaxation last night. How I envision myself, how I feel about myself becomes just as important a part of the microcosm and the sphere of sensation as anything else I may put inside, that I may internalize. And for most people, the desiring machines and all that become demonic ideas and ego-aspects that seek to redefine us as negatives, as what we lack. Other people’s…

Mediating Gods & Otherworlds

It’s a mild, autumn, cloudy morning. The clouds are low even as the sun tries to come out. [WtaW] deG, towards the end, writes something that helps cut past certain—things. Y told me how the sun is the burning core of elthil that provides most of the elthil for this star system, and this note seemed to have an occult sense to it. The sun is the source of most of the energy on earth—sunlight to…

I offered devotion to only the Morrigan last night, and she seemed much more Present, but that may result more from less split attention than anything else. Otherwise, She insisted I venture through the Door and into the Shores of the ___, and I headed via T to Ae’s court and estates. It was night this time, and the moon lit the clouds in spectacular ways. I came to coastal forests and to Ae’s…

I rited last night. Primarily, I wanted to recenter and work on bridging. SS told me that the paths were important and that I should focus on understanding them. ShF and I spoke of the physical component of Presence, and I told him how I’d started to grow more conscious of it at [work]. It remains too easy for me to glide past WM, and I think I want to go back and med’te on the waters, do some…

I rited some last night, cutting to the chase to med’te and honor the pantheon. I spelled for leaving and breaking out of Hardûun, but I also wound up prepping for trance. Indeed, I think I focused on bridging, on seeing the paths— —in trance, I easily and quickly found my way to the stream—the flowing waters of TTG in the Dark Wood. The previous barriers don’t seem to appear anymore, along that…

In riting last night, the Guardians spoke about my plan to […]. I think they were all in favor, or convinced me that what was holding me back from tying myself to the Otherworlds more was choice and action. Always hedging for fear of what might happen becomes cowardice, Sh.F. said, and I felt that I had too often taken the cowardly path. And you cannot, do not want to do so, when it comes to the…