#hsn

many autistic people need tasks broken into tiny steps to understand how do something

many autistic people need positive feedback in way that other think condescending

many autistic people childish and have childish interests

many autistic people have to always be supervised never alone because of risk of hurt self or get in dangerous situations

many autistic people have violent messy big meltdown, even in public

many autistic people struggle with speech always will maybe rest of life (non verbal, semi verbal, demi verbal etc.)

AND most of these autistic people higher support needs + level 2 & 3 autism, don’t forget or ignore us. can’t say “that not true just stereotypes” when it just symptom and sign of higher support needs higher level autism.

you want to raise awareness for lower support needs level 1 autism and yes good ok!!!! but not this way where throw HrSN level 2+3 autistic under bus.

if can speak by mouth then you not the “real” HSN we talk abt

if can communicate thoughts n try teach people with OWN voice n maybe make world understand you & people who may not be able communicate those similar HSN experiences better, then you not the “real” HSN we talk abt

if have functional communication then you not the “real” HSN we talk abt

if can get education then you not the “real” HSN we talk about

if not scream all the time then you not the “real” HSN we talk about

if have friends then you not the “real” HSN we talk abt

if can have sliver of meaningful resistance then you not the “real” HSN we talk about

bc we all know “real” HSN be perfect pliant talking points u can mold into whatever that support your view bc they not have voice right they can’t have voice or else they not “real HSN”, “real HSN” not have voice so need us have voice be their voice (but only us!! not the fake HSN people they not HSN profound enough)

or sth like that

(^ an pretend to say what those people say. not actually believe it)

words not work recently but it really funny how

say you advocate for HSN autistic ppl level 3 ppl severe profound autism ppl without functional communication. who can’t self advocate so you need do “for” them. bc world not understand n not support.

n oh look there be a HSN level 3 autistic person who try hardest get world understand n support, who can talk abt what it like be like a HSN level 3 person! n so maybe maybe performatively say, oh this be great! someone who lived experience give insight on what it like BE THE ONE ACTUAL LIVE IT!

then show true color, what you believe this entire time, when they say sth you not agree with, you can’t twist, that not benefit u. then suddenly they not qualified enough to speak on this (but you are??) bc well see they can speak they can communicate they not screaming they educated they have degree they have friends they this they that so they not the REAL HSN level 3 profound you mean. the REAL hsn Level 3 profound can’t do all that n it insulting YOU that they share same

if disagree w you then we not HSN anymore

bc now that some HSN ppl have voice can self advocate (with support u not see so must not exist) you can’t twist n manipulate n finger puppet through then that make you mad n so they must not be HSN enough

we perfect cute lil HSN people until we show autonomy n advocacy (ya know, the thing u advocate for) in way that you can’t finger puppet or be “our voice” speak for us while hide behind us the gracious cause

the perfect and real HSN autistic be someone who can’t communicate can’t resist n be perfect little puppet for you to speak through.

i hope your happy if you decided to spend the rest of your life filling out a bucket list.

i hope your happy if you decided to spend the rest of your life partying until you drop.

i hope your happy if you decided to spend the rest of your life continuing as normal, working a job and getting groceries and the like.

i hope your happy if you decided to spend the rest of your life resting and relaxing as much as you can.

i hope your happy if you decided to spend the rest of your life trying to find a cure of some sort.

i hope your happy if you decided to spend the rest of your life aware and okay with the fact you are going to die.

i hope your happy if you decided to spend the rest of your life working towards the future, even if you might not see it.

i hope your happy if you decided to spend the rest of your life with your loved ones, giving them memories to last their lifetime.

i hope your happy if you decided to spend the rest of your life focusing on yourself, not letting anyone else hurt you again.

i hope your happy if you decided to spend the rest of your life seeing the world.

i hope your happy if you decided to spend the rest of your life staying at home with your cat.

LEVEL 3 AUTISM =/= CANT LEARN.

LEVEL 3 AUTISM =/= CHILD.

LEVEL 3 AUTISM =/= UNAWARE.

☆ This is a quarter sized zine that prints on two sheets of paper, it talks about some of the complexities around relying on caretakers as a disabled adult ☆

For a teeny bit of context about me: I am an autistic, ambulatory wheelchair user, living with multiple medical conditions that frequently require constant watchful care or hospitalization.

I am also a complex trauma survivor, which does shape my experience but isn't touched on in this zine. Please keep in mind that this was written from my lived experience perspective and may not accurately reflect the lived experiences of other disabled people, even those with overlapping diagnoses, symptoms, and demographics!

I tried to keep this one on the shorter side, but as a result did have to cut several planned topics for space :O

disability is complicated and tangly to talk about and hard to abbreviate because there is so much nuance, and i tend to be a pretty long and wordy sort of creature. i miiiight make another one at some point talking about more topics within this or going more in depth, so if there is any specific thing anyone wants to see discussed in a future zine let me know!

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