#hrmn

Why do I love berserk and specifically Griffith so much despite him being the literal antichrist? I relate to his struggles with internalized homophobia and forced heteronormativity. Hell, berserk made me finally like, accept that it's okay that I spent so long trying to ignore the gay and force myself to be straight.

I relate to hollow because at times I feel like just an empty broken shell (and the parental neglect and abuse but w/e) and im basically piecing myself back together again after being on deatha door.

My body is falling apart quicker than doctors can put it back together and dealing with that is hard. Watching my friends graduate this year when I'm learning how to draw and walk and barely function is hard. Dealing with memory loss and brain fog and a brain injury is hard. Loosing my ability to walk is hard. Learning how to be a person again is hard.