#howmuchshemeanstome

I WANT TO SEE YOU NOW!!!

You are as important to me as my goals in life. Hell, YOU are my goal in life! I want to make you laugh, be with you in your victories, comfort you when you are in your lowest, hold your hand when you are scared, cuddle with you in cold nights to warm you up, your pair of ears to listen to all your problems, your punching bag when you have a bad day and needed to let it out. I want to be the one who would remind you to drink your water every now and then. I want to be that person who would just hug you when you are having your breakdowns. I want to be the man who would support you in your dreams even if the whole world doesn’t believe in it. I want to be your companion, your best friend, your warrior, your hero, your husband, your duke, your everything that you want me to be.

There is nothing like her! She is no one I have ever seen. Her beauty, her kindness, her loving nature. There is nothing like her! I think I have found my soulmate. She is the kindest woman I have ever met. Her heart illuminates as she smiles to people in need. She doesn’t hesitate in lending a hand even she’s on the brink of collapsing. Her beauty surpasses everything I have seen in my life. The way her eyes squint when her lips shows that wonderful and majestic smile. It always captures me. The way she loves life affects me so that I would want to commit my whole life just to live with her. Right now, at this moment, there is nothing I want more is you. Even in parallel dimensions, different worlds, different time periods. I will still choose you, no matter what! My heart, my soul, my being will choose you. I want to be with you!

No matter how many times you disappoint me, I still love you. No matter how many times you broke my heart, I still love you. No matter how many times you left me, I still love you. I don’t know why? I honestly do not know why I am not giving up on you? You left me several times but still I accepted you with open arms. My heart always aches for you, longs for you, and even if I am in so much pain, I still want you? Am I being too sadistic to myself? Am I being too ambitious that eventually you’d see me differently? Am I that too desperate for you?

Whenever I talk to you, everything becomes at peace. The chaos, the pain, the heartache, even the sadness and my depression slowly melt like a block of ice under a hot, scorching sun. Your words soothe me. Your laughter calms me down. Your voice warms up my cold abandoned heart. You utter the exact same words running over my head. With your every word, I am captivated. With your every word, I am mesmerized. With your every word, I hope again. You know exactly what to say and that’s one more thing I love about you.

With all our conversations, you never knew how much I love you. How much I care for you. How I long to be there for you always. How I long to hold that soft, warm hand of yours as we stroll aimlessly on a Saturday evening. How I long to cuddle with you in our couch on a lazy Sunday afternoon. You squeeze inside me, wrapping your loving arms around my torso, pressing your chest to mine while your head rests on my shoulder. Our eyes would meet and we know that we have found each other. We know we found the best thing in life and you don’t want to let it go.