Jun 3
you know how EVERYONE says "don't work for a non profit it's awful" and you go "surely not this. This must be the exception because i'm Good and Pure Of Heart and Full Of Good Intentions"?
don't work for a non profit it's awful. it will suck the will to live right out of your every orifice. and especially do NOT. do NOT FUCKING VOLUNTEER to be in positions that are financially or administratively important. DO NOT let anyone make you irreplaceable. you will cry. ask me how i fucking know
#i've been on this project since august and i'm so done. Like i'm over it. i just want to drink a bottle of wine and cry and go to sleep#HONESTLYYYYYYY#Im supposed to be in charge but really i'm not even in charge of my crumbling mental health#TODAY was fucking peak.#Guy 1 (who is in contact with the owners of our building) asks me to go and ask our energy provider to raise our consumption ceiling.#I ASSUME he knows what he's talking about so i say no problem and go where he tells me#OF COURSE there's like 40 people in line#Whatever#i wait i'm zen#I get to talking to someone. LITERALLY EVERY INFO GUY 1 GAVE ME WAS FUCKING WRONG#the bills have not been turned over to us so i'm not even supposed to access the info but i explained to the energy person and he told me#AND IT TURNS OUT THEY'RE NOT EVEN OUR ENERGY PROVIDER. IT'S A DIFFERENT COMPANY#WE DONT KNOW WHICH COMPANY#WASTED my entire fucking morning for no good reason#AND THEN god reprimanded by guy 1 and guy 2 because they're delivering some heavy shit today and i'm not available to unload#WHEN I FUCKING TOLD THEM I WOULDNT BE TODAY because I have a whole ass OTHER JOB and i also had SURGERY and i can't lift#But 'well phoebe it just sounds like youre not very committed to this' I HOPE YOU SHIT YOUR PANTS
