#high rant

i love friends who will clock me on my bullshit. i love when a friend will tell me no, how you treated that person wasn’t okay. hey, how your dealing with this situation is unfair. even when it doesn’t involve them. i’ve always been this kind of friend, and ive lost a lot of friendships because people expected me to be compliant in their issues. i don’t understand this concept though, because if you are my friend and i am yours should we not want to see eachother be the best, kindest versions of ourselves? should we not hold eachother to a certain expectation? when i tell my friends these things, it’s never to judge or attack them. it’s because i know who they are at their core, and i know they’re better than that. but also knowing that they’re human and their emotions get to them sometimes. within friendships it’s so important to have these safe spaces. to me this is real love, not just allowing eachother to do stupid, crazy, or dangerous things. at the very least, not without me.

furby toys are fuckin ouija boards man ghosts be usin em I swear does anyone else remember being traumatized by their furby as a kid because you knew for a fact the batteries were dead but that mf would talk in the middle of the night yeah bye

my friend just suckered me into getting high with random straight boys and I smoked too much and I'm having an existential crisis help me

people constantly say things like “community is dead” and “where is my village” but the reality is that nobody wants to BE a villager anymore. i often tell my best friends when they complain to me about feeling like a burden that even if that were true, i would be happy to carry it for them. my shoulders are strong, and you don’t have to carry this alone. i tell them about what a blessing it is to be inconvenienced by them. nobody wants to be inconvenienced anymore, nobody wants to go out of their way and help anyone. if you want to see a resurgence in community then BE the community. it’s a corny phrase, but change starts with you. help old ladies with their groceries, open the door for people, do things for your friends even when it doesn’t benefit you. even when it inconveniences you.