#hellablerbs

Crooked Tooth // Little Junior

Velvet Elvis // Kasey Musgraves

Superstar // Sonic Youth

All Over the World // ELO

Last Train to London // ELO

Bad Girls // St. Vincent

Heart 2 Heart // Lisa Prank

A New Wave // Sleater-Kinney

Disappointing Diamonds Are the Rarest of Them All // Father John Misty

I Am Trying to Break Your Heart // Wilco

Ask DNA // The Seatbelts

4 Leaf Clover - Ravyn Lenae

Make Me Feel // Janelle Monae

Tonya Harding // Sufyan Stevens

 Boot // Tamar-kali

i’ve been having mad financial trouble bc every time I get any help, it immediately goes to living costs bc Corvallis is the worst and my current housing is honestly too expensive sooooo.....I’ve set up a ko-fi! 

I’m not gonna say I’m in the worst financial situation ever, I’ve been very lucky....HOWEVER...any amount would be helpful! You can also hit up my paypal, and if you’d like me to draw you something please ask! I’m not confident enough to ask for paid commissions but I also don’t want ya to donate and feel like I’m just asking for money.

Examples of what I will be using any money for are; detergent/laundry, food essentials, essential art supplies (microns & the like), as well as rent/internet/electricity bills, student bills.

i tried to just kinda rest my foot against his while we were in the dj booth last night but he just kind of...got super uncomfortable? :( like i know we had talked about no pda on the fourth floor, this was the most pg thing i could have done (like there’s literally a giant table blocking any view of our legs?)....and i don’t know, it was just so awkward last night because i wanna be cutesy but part of that is being a little more touchy (like not mackin hard core or anything) but he just...doesn’t like it? like the people in the booth next to us couldn’t even see our feet touch but he still moved a few feet away from me after i mentioned it?

and i want him to be comfortable, like again i totally understand why he wanted to do no pda in the sec...but sometimes it literally just feels like he’d rather people at kbvr don’t know we’re dating? i don’t know...like this one dude that was blatantly hitting on me was literally in the next room and he was worried that we would be too coupley in front of him? like...of course no one knows we’re dating because we only ever kiss in the elevator or hold hands outside the building but then like you purposefully sit next to me and only talk to me when i come to the sec and like...i probably couldn’t even call him a pet name without making him extremely uncomfortable.

I don’t know, it’s still really good! Like don’t get me wrong...I think he’s a little annoyed we haven’t really moved farther in the physical parts of the relationship (god bless sickness and breakthrough bleeding) but I feel comfortable doing that with him?? I guess?? But if I’m not...will he just break up with me? I thought he was better then Gabe, and we certainly communicate about sexual stuff more but I’m also not sure how far that extends? I want to give him the benefit of the doubt in terms of emotional maturity and being cool about the fact that sex is uncomfortable but I am never really sure because there is this extreme contrast. 

Going from being as platonic as possible to like...my house or his house where all of a sudden he’s super handsy and flirty and basically all he wants to do is canoodle...when it’s like...I want to just be a couple for a bit and hang and do cute stuff because we don’t really do that when we’re hanging in the SEC but...the second we start kissing that’s all we end up doing. Like when I went to his house, I was super excited to play with the synths and play video games but we basically hopped into bed the second we got there and it’s like...I could have said ‘hey let’s not’ but then later I feel bad because like...he’s always super turned on and I don’t want to break the mood.