Anyway, safe to say I have 0 desire to interact with any of them.

I don’t wanna do this again. I know my family holds me responsible for my dad’s passing without saying it. And I don’t carry both death’s on each shoulder. I feel like a freak dude i wanna feel normal. My life is just, so comically absurd. I don’t like the side effects of my mom’s new pills i feel a strong sense of deja vu and i feel like I’m pushing my mom further and faster into a grave. You trust me but idk this doesn’t feel right but the alternative is you stay put in a mental hospital. Why does my brother get to live his life without a care in the world about this. So many sleepless nights. I feel so ugly. What if I inherit her illness when I’m older. It breaks my heart every day. Every moment i feel it. A never ending shatter mind you this is while you’re still alive. A bookcase in front of the door cause you try to leave at 3am every night. A terror and paranoia to eat and fall asleep on both our ends. She thinks I’m gonna poison her and i think she’s gonna run away. Yum resentment. Dude I just wanna sleep so bad. I just hate showing up everywhere yawning and falling asleep and drinking copious amounts of beans all the time. And I’m getting ready to choke out most of my friends cause they always say dumb shit like “oh why can’t you stream? Why can’t you go?” How many times are you gonna make me say my mom’s slowly fucking dying why can’t you remember this simple thing.

I WILL BE FINE OK I JUST NEED TIME.

God willing it goes better than I could ever dream & in 4 years I'll be Dr A!! (Psychologist) meee!? 12 Yr old me is in shock & awe rn

Está con su equipo alzando la copa, como que ganaron el mundial ⭐️⭐️❤️