#harvsinthestars

I've gotta come up with a list of stuff to save up for that I need for sixth form :c

Not having a uniform means I have to replace all my old and broken school stuff AND buy more clothes so it doesn't look like I wear the same thing every day (plus my clothes don't really fit me). I do NOT have money for that...

Also its a new school (I'm moving to somewhere completly different) and I won't know anybody, or my way around, AND they have KEY CARDS !!!! to use the bathrooms

Use the expensive perfume, wear that nice dress to the supermarket, wear the nicest lipstick you own. Dance in your kitchen, go do that thing by yourself, go to the gym, to the cafe, go anywhere and everywhere. Walk, look, pay attention.

I've got the most AMAZING oppurtunity to interview one of the illustrators of PETER RABBIT!!! How sick is that guys!!!

Remember, local artists with emails will almost always be happy for you to reach out. Most artists (especially illustrators) don't recive the the fanbase they deserve. Email that brand, or spokesperson, or artist, or local musician. See if you can ask them some questions, or get an autograph or anything else. Who cares if they dont answer, they dont KNOW you.

Why can't I be someones favorite? Everyone has a closer best friend or someone that always gets picked before me. Why can't I ever make those connections. It feels like everyone hates me. I'm always the slowest and the most annoying and the ugliest. Like I was talking to these two girls and one of them said she doesn't understand how so many pretty girls are so self consious and the other one said yeah I'm so jealous of girls that look like you refering to the other person. Damn I know I'm ugly but you dont need to rub it in. I would literally trade anything in the world to be conventionally attractive its not even funny. Even my THUMBS are ugly... HOW DO YOU GET UGLY THUMBS.

Plus I have to get my photo taken at school tommorrow and I really don't want to, I lowkey feel like even the teachers make fun of how I look at this point its so bad. I hate being at school already because I feel like I smell bad and people are judging me PLUS my old friends are always staring at me and I hate every lesson I have near them. Now you are telling me on top of all that and the pain I just have from existing (let alone walking) I have to have a photo taken...