I did one washing machine full of clothes and gotta hang them up soon but other than that I haven't done any of the things I need to do today

like I gotta revise some things for my exams and write the last few sticky notes and hang them up in my room because thats how the stuff stays in my head apparently

and then I wanted to do some exercises that are like the questions I will get in my exam

plus I still need to do the economy topic things I have been procrastinating aaaah

In theory I also need to get my package from one of those package stations but I can also just do that on Monday when I am already out of the house because I really don't wanna go outside rn

Name: Allison Nickname: usually ‘Allie’ (sometimes ‘Al’) Star sign: aquarius Gender: ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.  Height: 5′6″ish? Favorite colour(s): indigo Time right now: 5:08am...yeah I know Average hours of sleep: it varies SO MUCH it’s unhealthy Lucky number(s): 3, 13, 27 Last thing I googled: the layout map of a library building... wow so cool Blankets you sleep with: usually a light blanket on top of a comforter Favourite books : a lot... :\ I love John Green books (don’t judge me) Favourite fictional characters: hmmm I think. Sam Winchester, MCU!Peggy Carter, and Harry Potter are all among my faves. Favourite bands/artists: Panic! at the Disco, the Decemberists, Walk the Moon, the Mountain Goats, and Death Cab for Cutie What do you post: uh, mostly feminism stuff and mental illness related text post, probably. also photosets of beautiful people. Do you have any other blogs?: I have one other blog, but it’s not very active Who is your most active follower?:all usually @adhdkirabraginsky and @xo-nothingatall :) What made you decide to get tumblr?: the nerdfighter community :P Do you get asks on a daily basis?: lol nope.  Why did you choose your url?: I chose it in like 8th grade (like seven years ago omg) because I liked that ally is spelled similarly to allie. it was still before I knew the political significance of the world ally lol. it became my username in most places. What im wearing: black leggings, navy blue shirt and brown target brand moccasins. so mismatchy. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ When did you create this blog: July 23rd 2010, according to my archive! When did your blog reach its “peak”?: I have no idea ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ What are you doing tomorrow: going to class and probably not much else bc I’ll be super tired because I’m pulling an unnecessary all-nighter!! a+ job, @ me.

Lately, I’ve been in a better mood and it might just be the anti-depressants, but I like to think it’s the possibility that my soul could finally be healing itself. 

It’s been four years since I started to have a little trouble with myself.

I start to think about how at one point I gave myself the option of not experiencing those four years and all that has happened in those four years, both good and bad. 

From having a rocky relationship with my parents to not going a day without having to hear their voice. From completely hating my body to actually trying to get better. From crying on a daily basis because all I felt was sorrow to giving people free hugs because I genuinely felt like it and being able to laugh at the dumbest things. 

I’ve come to the conclusion that the anxiety will always be there and there are days where an old version of me decides to return, but in the last year I’ve learned to shake it off.