‘I just got a call from Nancy. She has finished the autopsy and turns out the girl who died in the fire is Stacy Jones. She is Benjamin’s sister, or was.’ Kevin said with sorrow in his voice after he put the phone down.

‘Alright, Jay and Hailey, you’re on this one. See if you can get any information out of this Benjamin. I want the rest to question the witnesses.’ Everyone grabbed their coat after Voight’s que and left as soon as they could.

The car ride towards Benjamin’s house was silent as both Jay and Hailey felt sorry for the kid. He visited the district earlier that day to ask if they knew anything about his sister who was visiting a friend but never came home. Hailey had to break the news to him that Stacy’s friend’s house burned down and that they hadn’t found her yet. The boy was worried sick and both detectives felt sorry for the boy, especially Jay who knew that he would feel exactly the same if this happened to his sister.

‘Are you sure you’re okay with this? You know I won’t mind telling him the bad news.’ Said Hailey as Jay parked the car in front of Benjamin’s house.

‘I’ll be fine, Hails,’ Jay smiled slightly at his wife and squeezed her hand before getting out of the car and walking towards the house with Hailey following his lead. Jay took a deep breath and knocked on the door, which was opened quickly. The two detectives were met with a worried looking brother who let them in as soon as he saw them.

‘Did you find her?’ the boy asked desperately once he recognised the detectives in front of him. Jay glanced at Hailey, who gave him a nod, before speaking up.

‘Yea, we found her.’

Benjamin was too focused on Jay’s words to notice the tone he was speaking in and felt relief wash over his body. ‘That’s great! How is she?’

Jay grimaced as he looked down at his feet for a couple of seconds, trying to think of a way that he could bring the bad news. Normally he wouldn’t be so emotionally involved in cases, but this one was different. He imagined this girl being his own sister, Y/N. He would be devastated if anything happened to her. He could only imagine what Benjamin must go through.

‘Ben, I think it’s best if you take a seat.’ Said Hailey as she put a hand on his arm and guided him towards the couch.

‘Why,’ the boy looked confused as he was guided towards the couch and sat down hesitantly, ‘what’s wrong?’

Hailey sat down next to Benjamin while Jay took a seat in front of him, levelling with the boy’s eyes. He didn’t waste any time and jumped right into the story. ‘We found your sister in her friends house, which you already know burned down. We found the girl alive and well and we found your sister too.’ The detective took a moment to breathe. He found himself having a hard time telling the poor kid that his sister died. Hailey glanced towards Jay for a second, making sure that he could continue telling the news or if she had to take over. The detective got himself together quickly and continued.

‘We found Stacy under a pile of bricks, she was burned and she wasn’t breathing either.’ Jay finally got the words out and looked at Benjamin reluctantly. It took the boy a couple of seconds to let Jay’s words sink in and when it hit him, he looked up at the detective with tears in his eyes. Hailey could feel that his body started to tremble and she was quick to place her arm around the boy who, in return, buried his face in the crook of her neck. Tears started streaming down his face as he cried in silence. Both detectives looked at each other, Jay giving his wife a nod, silently telling her that it was okay to ask Benjamin the infamous question.

‘I’m so sorry, Benjamin, but I have to ask you; do you know who might have done this?’

‘Y-yes, it had to be her boyfriend, Eric. She found out he was cheating on her and they got into a huge fight. He swore that if she told anyone that he had another girlfriend, he would make her suffer.’ Benjamin sniffled after he got the words out. He sat up straight and wiped the tears from his face.

‘What is Eric’s last name?’ asked Jay.

‘It’s Hill. His name is Eric Hill.’

Both of the detectives fell silent. Jay’s face hardened as he recognised the name. Eric Hill is his sister’s boyfriend. The son of a bitch cheated on her.

‘How long have they been together?’ Jay clenched his jaw as he looked at the boy in front of him. He was fumbling with his hands, trying to stop himself from crying.

‘Erm, I’m not sure. I think they were together for like 6 months?’

The detective stood up abruptly, knocking over the chair he was sitting in. His sister’s boyfriend had been cheating on her for half a year! Y/N loved him. They have been together for almost two years. She always gave him everything that she could. She would always give him some paintings that she made or some random gifts she found at shops. She wanted to marry him and be with him for the rest of her life. How dare he betray that sweet girl like that! Jay was going to make him pay. He would make sure that he got sent to the worst prison in America, he’d even drive him there himself if he had to.

‘Thank you , Benjamin. I have to go now, but I’ll make sure that Eric gets what he deserves. You have my word.’ Jay nodded at the kid and quickly left the house before he lost control of his emotions.

‘I am really sorry for what happened, Benjamin.’ Said Hailey as she got up from her seat next to him. ‘I promise you we will find him and get him the punishment he deserves. I will talk to you soon. Take care of yourself, alright?’ the boy nodded as the detective put a hand on his shoulder and squeezed it reassuringly before leaving the house, following Jay.

-

Y/N’s brother didn’t waste any time and drove to Eric’s house as fast as he could. Hailey tried to stop him, but he didn’t listen. The man was furious, he didn’t have time to do everything by the book. He wanted to avenge her.

Without any hesitation, Jay parked the car in front of the house and didn’t even bother to knock. He kicked down the door and walked inside. There sat Eric in the living room, smoking a joint. Jay never knew he smoked, neither did Y/N. The boy stood up quickly and looked shocked, but at the same time angry.

‘What the hell-‘ he was cut of by Jay who pushed him back on the couch.

‘Chicago pd, asshole.’ Y/N’s brother was trembling with anger and Hailey tried to pull him away from the boy, afraid that he might hurt him but Jay shrugged her off and pretended that she wasn’t there.

‘Jay, what the fuck are you doing here?! Why is she here?’ Eric asked as he nudged his head towards Hailey.

‘We’re here because you are suspected of murdering a teenage girl this morning. You are hereby arrested, you have the right to remain silent. Everything you say can and will be used against you.’ Hailey tried to at least do something by the book and walked over to him, softly pushing Jay aside.

‘What? I didn’t do nothing!’ Hailey grabbed Eric by the arm and pulled him from the couch. He struggled against her, trying to push her away.

‘You cheated on Y/N, and when Stacy found out that you already had a girlfriend, you got scared. You got scared so you killed her. You burned down the house of her friend and burned her alive!’ Jay’s words were venomous as he looked Y/N’s – soon to be-  ex-boyfriend in the eyes.  

‘I didn’t cheat on her!’ Eric shouted as he still struggled against Hailey’s grip, who had managed to cuff him in the meantime.

‘Oh yeah? Then who’s Stacy Jones and why is she dead?’ Jay stood directly in front of the boy and looked him in the eyes, silently daring him to lie.

‘I- I don’t know!’ Eric avoided eye contact, which was enough for Jay and Hailey to know he was lying. They pulled him towards the car and brought him to the district.

-

At the end of the day, Jay came home to a very confused Y/N. As soon as Y/N heard the front door open, she stood up form her seat and walked over to him.

‘Jay, thank God you’re home. What’s going on? Will wouldn’t tell me, but I know that it’s serious.’ Jay’s sister nudged towards her eldest brother, who had walked up to them and gave Jay a greeting nod.

The brown-haired man hesitated a little before speaking up. ‘Listen, Y/n.’ He looked at Will quickly, who took over.

‘Maybe we should take a seat,’ Will put a hand on his sister’s arm and softly guided her towards the couch where he sat next to her. Jay took a seat on the small table in front of his siblings and rested his elbows on his knees. He had called Will earlier that day and asked him if he wanted to come over. He had thought it would be better for Y/N if she was with her brothers when she found out about her boyfriend cheating on her. Not to mention he also killed the girl he was cheating with, but they had decided to leave out that part.

Y/N looked at Jay and then at Will who looked at her in silence, both trying to come up with a way to break the news. They knew it was going to break their sister’s heart and so they tried to come up with a way to put it lightly, as to not hurt her too much.

‘Listen, erm,’ started Jay as he took his sister’s hands. ‘When I was at work today, I had to interrogate some witnesses of a crime. Some of these witnesses was a boy around your age. His sister was involved in the crime, she was a victim.’

Y/N held onto her brother’s hands as he told her the story. She wasn’t expecting anything, really. She was curious to what he might say next. She didn’t say anything as he continued his story.

‘When we asked this boy about what happened to his sister, he told us that her boyfriend might know some more. So Hailey and I went over to his house.’ Jay lowered his head and sighed, a pit forming in his stomach as he tried to break the news.

‘Okay, and?’ asked Y/N, now even more curious.

Her detective brother looked up again and Y/N could see sorrow in his eyes. What was he trying to tell her?

‘We found Eric in the house. He was alone.’

‘What was Eric doing in her boyfriend’s house?’ the girl’s mind was running wild, trying to think of a reason why her boyfriend would be in the victim’s boyfriend’s house. Maybe they were friends and the victim’s boyfriend had to go somewhere and he waited for him?

Jay fell silent as he tried not to make eye contact with his sister. He looked at Will instead who got the hint and put a hand on Y/N’s shoulder, earning her attention.

‘Y/N,’ he started softly, ‘Eric was her boyfriend.’

A silence fell over the three siblings as Jay and Will gave their sister some time to let the information sink in. After a couple of seconds, which felt like minutes, she let out a sob and looked from Will to Jay with tears in her eyes.

‘He c- cheated on me?’ Jay nodded and squeezed her hands, which he hadn’t let go, softly.

‘I’m sorry, kiddo.’

Y/N’s silent sobs turned into screams of grief. She loved him. She loved him so much. She didn’t think he would ever cheat on her! They had already planned out their future wedding and they had thought about names for their future children. How could he cheat on her? She thought he loved her, too!

Will put his arms around her and pulled her close to him. Her cries broke his heart. He rubbed circles on her back and kissed the top of her head in a way of soothing her, which, of course, didn’t work. He looked at Jay who had his hand in front of his face, trying to hide the tears that were forming in his eyes.

‘How long?’ asked Y/N after a while. Her cries had become less and she was now a sobbing mess. Her hair was stuck to her tear-dried cheeks and she sniffed, looking at Will’s shirt that she had cried on, which was now soaked with her tears. Her brother still had his hand on her back and looked at her apologetically.

‘How long, what?’ he asked as he furrowed his brows.

Y/N looked at Jay, who quickly wiped at his eyes and sniffed his nose too. He had been crying. Seeing his sister hurt was the worst thing he could ever imagine. Hearing her cry like that, her cries were filled with the sound of a broken heart, hurt him even more. ‘How long has he been cheating on me?’

Jay hesitated before answering. ‘6 months,’ was all he could say.

Y/N clutched her hands to her chest and started crying again. Memories of her and Eric flooded her mind. They were happy memories. She never knew he was cheating. She would have never expected it. ‘Oh my god,’ she stammered, ‘6 months!’

Will pulled her into his arms again and slowly began rocking back and forth, whispering comforting things in her ears. Jay went to the kitchen and got her some hot cocoa and turned on the tv. He took a seat next to her and put his arm around her as well.

‘How about you drink some hot cocoa, we watch a movie together and Will and I taking you out for dinner tonight?’

Y/N lifted her head and turned towards her other brother. She smiled softly, wiping her tears away with the sleeves of her sweater. ‘Thank you guys so much. I don’t know what I would have done without you.’

‘It’s okay, kiddo.’ Jay kissed the top of her head and gave her the remote. ‘You can pick the movie for tonight.’

‘I love you guys,’ Y/N smiled at both brothers and picked out a feel-good movie.

Main Masterlist

The Runaway

(the beginning.)

“Hey, didn’t expect you here.” You spoke softly as you entered the kitchen, placing your clutch down on the island. Dorian was seated with some coffee and his breakfast. You’d just got in from an overnight with one of Kevin’s clients. You smelled of cigars and sex, unpleasant sex. You sighed. “Yeah, your husband asked me to come over..you look a little young to be married to Kevin?”

You chuckled. “Maybe I like my men older.”

“Even you can’t say that with a straight face. What is the deal between you two?” You took off your jacket, placing your jacket up on the coat rack. “You ask a lot of questions, Dorian.” He shrugged. “I’m just curious. The other day, the way he treated you wasn’t okay. No man should treat their wife like that.”

You shook your head. “You aren’t married, you wouldn’t understand.”

“Mm, I’ve had my fair share of marriage in the past. I understand the ups and downs of it, but I’ve never treated my wife the way I’ve witnessed Kevin treat you.” You sighed, shaking your head, turning on your heels to leave. “I’m going to shower.”

Truth was, although you didn’t know love and have never felt it. You knew that Dorian was right. But at the same time, there was nothing you could do about it. “Alright. I’m sorry if I offended you.”

You shook your head. “You didn’t offend me at all. What you’re saying is true. But it’s my life Dorian. You see how he is. There’s nothing that can be done, now if you’ll excuse me.”

You exited the room.

“You need to get her talking. Find out where the girls are being hidden, find out about Kevin.” His handler said into his invisible ear piece. Dorian (Jay) clicked his teeth. “I got this.” Finishing the eggs that was on his plate, he stood up wracking the remaining food in the trash, placing the dish in the dishwasher. He made his way down the hallway, to peep around and hide some bugs.

“Um, what’re you doing in here?” You ask him as you walk out the bathroom, naked and drying your hair with the white towel.

He stammered over his words, as his eyes met with your body. “My eyes are up here.” She snaps her fingers. “What’re you doing in my room, Dorian?”

“Im sorry. I didn’t know this was your room, I was coming in here to look for some paper and a pen, your husband’s office was locked.. you don’t share a room with Kevin?” He changes the subject. She looked at him grabbing the underwear that was laid out on the bed placing them on, her breast swung as she moves around. “Um, you mind covering?”

She laughs. “What? You don’t like the show?”

It wasn’t that he didn’t. He did. You were a beautiful woman to him but, he felt like this was.. wrong. Not to mention, you were covered in scars, bruises and some bite marks that were months or years old and it made him angry. He didn’t know why but it did. You had a small abrasion on her neck from when a John shoved you and you fell on the ground a few nights ago. “No, it’s not that.. just don’t think I should be seeing you like this.”

She chuckled. “Pretty much all of my husband’s entourage has seen me naked, more ways then one. I’m sure sooner or later, you will too.”

“What do you mean?” you sigh, grabbing a tank top out the drawer leaning against the dresser, your natural curls lying on your shoulders. “Doesn’t matter. I’ll open my husbands office and get the items you need.” Dorian sat on the bed. “That’s irrelevant right now, what happened there?” He pointed to the bite mark on your shoulder bone. “My husband likes to bite during sex. It’s nothing.”

Dorian laugh. “What he some kind of carnivore or something?”

You laugh and smile, shaking your head. “.. he’s something.” You smiled. “You mind leaving my room now?” He nods standing up, he slightly bowed his head, walking out the room. She walked behind him, she smiled, before closing the door and locking it. He let out a sharp exhale as he leaned against the door. He was almost.. caught.

“My husband won’t be flying in tonight, he says you’re more than welcome to stay in the guest house out back and his sister will be accompanying us so you won’t become handsy.” You said walking into the room.

Dorian (Jay) looked over at you. “Oh no, it’s all right. I’ll be okay going home. But, you going to be all right here? It’s supposed to be a big thunder storm tonight.” You smile. “It’s okay. I’m a big girl.” Dorian stood to his feet to leave, when you grabbed his hand. “Hey, wait, where are you going?” He looked down at you as he towered over you. “Home.” You slightly tap his chest. “No need for that. I’m making dinner. Stuffed Chicken breast, asparagus and mashed potatoes. So, stay for dinner and then you can leave.” He rubbed the back of his neck. “Hey, it’s the least I can do for you helping me the other night.”

“It wasn’t your fault you spilled that drink, Y/n. Speaking of, how’s your foot?”

You lean on your tippy toes. “It’s good, still sore but, I’m good.” You swayed away from him, starting on dinner. “Can I uh.. can I help?” You turned around only to be met with him, close. Body to body. Your hand touching his chest. “Oh uh.. no, but you can set the table for three- well four.”

“Who's the fourth?”

You didn’t answer. “You never answered my question, you know. I asked why you and Kevin weren’t sharing a room?” Dorian grabbed his second phone from inside his jacket. Texting Hailey that he wouldn’t be home tonight. She was responding but then left him on read. He just shoved his phone back in his pocket, knowing he disappointed her, yet again. But he figured she was out all night with Voight- like always.

“Kevin likes his space sometimes. So do I.” You answered not going into detail.

He nods. “Understandable, but separate bedrooms?” You walk over pouring yourself a tall glass of white wine. “Why are you so interested in my marriage? If you tryna fuck me just say that, it’ll cost you but, we can go in the bedroom right now.” You shrugged. Dorian frowned. “Huh?”

“I mean, come on.. I see the way you look at me. And almost all of my husband’s people have done with they want with me.. but for some reason, you’re the only one my husband hasn’t had me sleep with so, I’ll take my chances this time. I could use the cash.” Truth was, you were still trying to leave Kevin. You had been saving up all the extra money where and there for jons hoping that you could find some way to leave him without being harmed in the process.

Dorian laughs. “I don’t want to sleep with you, Y/n.” You furrowed your brows. “What do you mean? You don’t find me appealing?”

“It’s not that, I just- I’m not one of those men.”

You smiled. “Good to know. But all men are the same and all men want the same.” You shrugged, when the door opened and in came in Tonya, her red curls bounced. “What’s going on in here?” She looked at the two who were just inches away from each other talking as the food cooked. “Just talking.” Dorian smiled down at you then over at Tonya.

“About?”

Your smile faded. You knew Tonya deeply cared about you, she was the one who helped you escape her brother several times but, it wasn’t exactly easy. “Just dinner and I wanted to know his role.”

“Now you know my brother doesn’t allow his men to discuss business with you. Doesn’t matter how good you are in bed, they aren’t that stupid.” Tonya shook her head running her tongue over her rosy pink lips. “I’m aware of that, Tonya. Was that even necessary?” Tonya folded her arms. “Yes. Stop asking questions, I don’t want to see you hurt like last time. Ok?” Dorian raised an eyebrow. “I wouldn’t allow that.”

Tonya laughs. “You’re sweet but, stay out of this one and keep your hands to yourself. Okay, pretty boy?”

“Okay.” Dorian stepped back from you.

You shook your head at Tonya. “We were just talking.”

“And what happened to the last man you were ‘just talking’ to? Hmm?” You sighed and nodded your head, going back to cooking. You felt yourself becoming upset so you walked away, going to your room. “Tonya, man, what’s with the hostility? She and I were just talking, getting to know each other. After all, I’m in and out of her home.” Tonya stirred the mashed potatoes, looking over at Dorian. “Dorian, I actually like you. For some odd reason, I do. My brother is no saint. And he may not treat her right at all but he’s obsessed with her and very possessive when it comes to her. I just don’t want her hurt or you killed for any little thing that could be construed and taken out of context.”

Dorian shook his head. “He’s not here. She and I can be friends, Tonya. I don’t want to sleep with her.”

“We have company tonight. My brother got a new girl and he wants your opinion.” Dorian raised an eyebrow. “My opinion? Why mine? I’m just a weapons guy.” She shrugged. “I don’t know, all I know is.. he wants you to take the girl for a test run.” Dorian shook his head. “I’m not sleeping with some random woman.”

Tonya folds her arms. “You are, and it’s not a option. It’s an order.”

✭ ✭ ✭

-As Halstead-

Jay sighed heavily walking out of the home, his eyes locked with Yours as you watched him leave from the upstairs window, he buttoned up his shirt and shook his head. He didn’t sleep with the girl but made her pretend that he did. He couldn’t find himself wanting to do this job any more, the way things were done. This wasn’t what he was supposed to be doing. You smiled a tight-lipped smile as you looked down at you, tapping your hand slightly on the window.

He waved slightly.

Jay liked you. You had this innocence about you. You had this aroma that made him desire you. You were sweet, scared and damaged. You were broken, but you still managed to smile through the constant pain inflicted on you. He could hear Tonya yelling for her through the cracked window. He nodded at you, walking off getting in his undercover vehicle, driving to the hotel he was staying at during his undercover op. He sat in the garage parking lot for a minute just thinking about the op, you. And all what this entailed.

“Hello?”

He looked at the screen as Hailey answered, she was seated on their couch, propped up with a glass of wine in her hand. “Hailey..”

“Hey, Jay.”

He smiled. “What’re you doing?” She rubbed her eyes. “Just going over a case.” He nods, rubbing his shoulders. “You seem tired. I miss you.” Hailey was dry, to say the least but yet that’s how their relationship has been for months. He hated it. She changed. He didn’t like it but he put up with it because he loved her. “I am tired, Jay. Can we actually talk about this some other time? I’m just.. this case is important.”

“Hailey, you realize every time we talk you always rushing to get off the phone?!”

Hailey rubbed her forehead. “Jay, I don’t have time to argue with you. I’m busy just like you’re busy. If you would actually come home, you’d see that.” Jay clenched his jawline. “Hailey. You know I can’t just come home. I’m undercover. This is major for me. This man is a major player in the human trafficking and smuggling industry. I have to be smart about this. I could put you in danger if I were to come home. He has people watching me.”

“I-It’s fine Jay. I get it.” She fanned her hand.

He sighed deeply when their was a knock at his hotel room door. “I gotta go, Hailey. I love you.”

“Love you too, Halstead.”

He shook his head hanging up the FaceTime, hiding the phone. He grabbed his gun out the nightstand, making his way towards the door. Only two people knew this was his hotel. Tonya, and his handler. He swung the door open with the gun pointed. “Y/n.”

“Hi..” You pushed your way inside.

He closed the door behind him walking over and sticking the gun back where it was. “Y/n, what’re you doing here? How’d you even find out this is where I stay?”

“Overheard you telling Tonya. How was things with Miss.Sinclair?” You mouth off, sitting herself on the edge of his bed, crossing her leg over the other. “I don’t think that’s your business.. I should only be telling your husband that- why are you here?” you didn’t answer, she rubbed her hand over the bed, then glanced over at him. “You answer my question and I’ll answer yours.”

He shrugged. “It was alright.” You chuckled. “So, she wasn’t good?” He rubbed the back of his neck. “She was but, it just wasn’t me. I don’t like being pressured into doing something.” you fiddled with your coat’s strap. “Okay, well is she gonna be good for business?” He frowned. “I thought you didn’t handle your husband’s affairs?”

“The women, I do. I mean, it’s not like I want to. I have no choice. My husband puts me over them. He makes sure I find out if the men are satisfied, give the girls a few pointers in the bedroom and when it comes to hygiene, properly taking care of themselves.. I don’t pimp them out, I just ask the questions or join them.” you shrug. “You're saying that as if it's no big deal when it is.”

You shrugged. “Dorian. This is my life, okay? Kevin took me from the streets when I was just a baby. This is all I am and all I know. So spare me the guilt trips or the judgements.”

He walked closer to her. “What do you mean?”

“I got what I came for. I’ll be leaving now.” You made your way towards the door when he grabbed your hand. “Answer me.” You looked down at his hand linked in yours, then up at him. You’d had men be sweet and kind to you before, you’ve even had some obsessed with you. Promising to help you escape Kevin but what would it be like outside of him? And why was Dorian the one man you were feeling something you never felt before.. about. “No.” With that, you walked out. He rubbed the back of his neck, rushing over to his computer. He grabbed his phone dialing his handler.

He uploaded a photo he snuck of you sending it to his handler. “I just sent you a photo, run me everything you can on her.”

————

“Y/N?!” questioned Hailey as she opened the door. 

‘Fuck! Jay either wasn’t home or Hailey and him were in the middle of something’ you thought.

“What’s going on?” inquired Hailey as she saw your change of facial expression.

“Uh, is Jay here?” you felt your voice waver as you spoke. 

“He actually just ran to the store” responded Hailey.

Looking behind you, you shifted on your feet before looking down at the horrid maroon carpet that was in the hallway of Jay’s apartment complex. “Oh, I’ll just go then” you said.

As you turned to walk away, Hailey called out, “Hey! You can come in if you want. He should be right back.”

You smiled and nodded as she led you inside. Once she closed the door she walked you to the couch and the two of you sat down. 

“Is this a ‘only my big brother can help me’ situation, or can I get in the loop?” asked Hailey, breaking the silence. 

You pulled your knees up to your chest and sighed, “I’m not sure if you would understand.”

“You could always say it to me and if I can’t help, then we can just wait for Jay.”

“Ok,” you began. 

Breathing you laid back and went criss cross applesauce in your spot and began to explain. 

“So, ever since I started college, I’ve been on meds for Anxiety. I haven’t had a bad day or a full blown panic attack since getting on the meds. But 2 months ago, I had a really rough night and Jay ended up walking me off the edge. I’ve been doing really well since then. I haven’t been so overwhelmed with life and have taken a step back from certain things, and I even made it one month clean for the first time in a year and half, but uh I don’t know I woke up today and just felt off. I enacted my safety plan but I just am so overwhelmed! Everyone is telling me to be happy since happy things are happening such as me graduating in a week and all of these other things, but I’m more overwhelmed and - and” and before you knew it the hoover dam in your eyes finally broke and you were sobbing. 

“Hey, hey, it’s okay to be overwhelmed! I totally understand what you're going through!” soothed Hailey while pushing back your hair.

“Really? But you're so confident and badass” you sobbed. 

Chuckling to herself, Hailey spoke softly, “I wasn’t always this confident. I too was plagued with anxiety and was on meds for a while.”

Wiping the back of your hand under your nose, you smiled, “really?”

Smiling, Hailey added, “really. And can I let you in on a little secret?”

You nodded. 

“I’m also in recovery” she whispered. 

Your eyes went wide! You couldn’t believe the badass, confident cop who was banging your brother was also in recovery, “What!?!” You exclaimed!

Hailey nodded and laughed, “yea, for 10 years. It does get easier, the urges will die down and it also helps to have a good support system. Which it seems like you have.”

“10 years?!? I can’t even envision making it past 1 year!” you whispered. 

Before Hailey could say more, the door opened and Jay appeared with some milk and a grocery bag. 

“I’m back! We can - Y/N!” he began before realizing you were sitting on his couch with puffy red eyes.

Rushing over he knelt down in front of you and spoke softly, “Hey, are you okay? Are you having a rough night”

You nodded and spoke, “Yea, but Hailey helped!” 

Looking at his wife, Jay smiled, “Well I’m glad she could help! Since you're here, do you want to help us make cake? We were going to make some and bring some to you, but since your here”

“Sure!” you smiled and the three of you went to make cake you realized that you had a new person you could turn to when you're having a rough day!