THE SILENT SHIFTS!
How little we think that years change us, and when we visit the folder of old pictures that is kept somewhere on our laptops, we realise that years change a lot; they change us within, and they change the world outside.
I never realised the guava tree in my lawn had grown so much; I thought it was always a big tree, the way it is now.
I realised my parents look older now, which made me sad. Why are they aging? They were so young when I was a little girl. Even I have changed so much. My hair looked different back then. I had a different haircut in my old pictures. I saw in my old pictures that I had nail paint on my nails, which I don’t remember when I stopped wearing. I don’t even wear makeup now. Where did that girl go? What happened to her? When did I lose her? I am so different now; I think differently, I look different, and I have grown so much. And I thought my life was stale, and nothing had changed in all these years.
Sometimes a storm first settles within the mind, and then a clear sky appears outside.
The sunshine in old pictures felt different, the clouds looked different, and the birds that visit me today are not the same birds that visited me years ago. The pictures of friends I don’t talk to anymore, the pictures of friends we last met a decade ago but we are still in touch, everything felt different back then, the sky felt different, the rain, the hailstorms, the leaves, the plants, the shadows, the birthday cakes, the laughter, the random pictures of food and roadtrips, the blurred pictures, the seasons that look same every year felt different in pictures, the summer of 2022 was not the same as the summer of 2015, the winters do come every year but, those pictures made me realise that every winter is different and right now the winter i am experiencing is first and last of its kind, and the pictures of loved ones who have left us forever, everything has changed, and I thought nothing has ever changed and that days are just passing by like a breeze.
Life feels like the guava tree in my lawn. It feels the same when I look at it today, but it is different now; things change, seasons change, people change, and so do we change. We don’t realise change because we think we live every day, but pictures made me realise we die every day.
@scribblersobia
Picture: A photo from my past!
