I haven’t posted a photo in forever but fear not, as I am not yet dead! I am just going through a very serious #bipolardepression right now. I haven’t had one this bad in a very long time. Ever since I started dancing & going back to college, I just haven’t had the mind space for it. Well, somehow when I started #cosmetologyschool it snuck in. It’s scary to me because the thoughts I have been having are too dark to tell most people. It’s embarrassing to feel this weak. I’m sure there are a lot of you that can relate. I am dealing with some actual (real life & not just mental) hardships right now which isn’t helping my mental state, but I can’t fully blame this low on my life, it’s actually been coming for some time. I also can’t afford to go to the therapist right now with trying to pay for my nearly 19,000 dollar cosmo school in monthly payments, so it’s even worse. I ask for your sympathy & hope, not because I am seeking attention, but because I need it. I only seek attention when I’m mentally healthy. Lol. Because it makes me happy. Right now, I’m unable to feel happy & it physically & mentally hurts. Please pray for me? Thank you. #bipolardisorder #mentalhealth #goingthroughit