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Episode #2022-16, Evolution

My version of comics by Husband & Husband

-Graveyard Picnic.

-Midnight Beach.

-Night in with Horror Movies and co-op videogames.

-Urban Exploration.

-Soft Pillows, hot drinks and Tarot cards.

-A walk through a deciduous forest in autumn.

-Normal date, but you wear acrylic vampire fangs and I wear latex elf ears.

-Haunted House/ Forest/ Corn Maze

So I went on my date with the guy from Tinder. He was a professional dancer. At first before going out with him that put me off thinking that might make him a bit effeminate, but the truth is he was more masculine than me. 

(side note: nothing wrong with effeminate or masculine, I believe they are all ok, its just how I like my men. I like my men with an equal balance of both, not either of the extremes)

The date was perfect on paper, we had Vodka Martinis at the Connaught followed by dinner in Little Mayfair. There was laughing, there was banter, more laughter, there was exposing oneself emotionally. 

BUT

and isn’t there always a but. He was too nice. I don’t know whats wrong with me or if i am your standard cliche guy who only likes guys that are bad for him or non interested in me. I can just hear the voice of my best friend in the States in my mind saying,  Adam go for it. What is wrong with you Adam, there is a guy who is perfect in every sense, who more or less seemed to be accepting of your (my)  flaws and yet you want to go after the boys that don’t treat you right, you wont go after the boys that are not men. you want to self destruct yourself. 

But. Its not true I don’t want to self destruct myself. I am a person of Duality. I love two extremes.  As I mentioned earlier i love my men masculine and effeminate. I like my boys to be both nice & bad. I like them top and bottoms. I like them to enjoy crazy night out or a morning in the market. Versatile but not singular. 

However there was a sign of relief that the date didnt work out because, well it leaves me still available for Mr. 23. granted I know nothing will happen but a boy can live in his dreams. 

I will end this post with this song