The neutral white that resides in my core started to change rapidly into crimson red that filled with burning hatred towards her. The voices inside started to take control and my mind lies dormant afterwards, all I remember was fresh blood that gently caress my lips and broken knuckles from a massive impact.
It happened again, my worst nightmare came true the moment when I saw her lying down on a floor, twitching and her face covered with fear when she saw me looking at her.
This time the line between love and hate blurred to a point where I can’t fathom which is which. One moment she can be the most wonderful person that you ever met in your life, an angel, or a soul mate perhaps. Her gentle mannerism puts you into trance and think that you were the happiest mortal. In the other hand, she can turned to unimaginable evil worse than Andariel, the Maiden of Anguish. She will exploit everything she can to throw you into the edge of madness. The torture wasn’t end here, her voice will echoes into your head until she took over your mind completely.
I reached a verdict today and I will stick to it. I’ve done terrible things and I do believe that heaven’s grail can’t even contain my myriad sins. I’ll strive into a path of lone wolf once again, where I can wander alone with no burdens and regret.
I’ll die alone but I’ll face it with a smile and open arms.
