#fullycharged1year

ugh. so many emotions because of this boy- no. correction: man. exo's kim jongdae, better known as chen. what to say, what to say. from the mama era to wolf to growl, our chen has grown up so much. the man who puts his heart into everything he does with a smile, even if some don't approve of what he does, he'll never let that get him down; nope - it'll only give him a reason to try even harder. the boy turned man who holds back tears when exo wins awards that'll go down into those history books or break world records because of having the maximum amount of triple crowns or having sold the most albums ever. the man who always knows how to make a first impression, always getting along with each and every member, sunbae, or simply just everyone in particular. sure, he's silly from time to time, but there's nothing wrong with being immature, now is it? we all have those times where we wish to turn back the clock and take a nice long trip down memory lane. he's talented in each and everything, honestly. even if he's not perfect in everyone's eyes, they should really give him more attention and love, considering he tries his best. without kim jongdae, exo wouldn't be complete. without kim jongdae, the world wouldn't be right, the sun wouldn't shine as brightly, and my heart wouldn't be whole. everything about him makes my heart skip a beat, if not, stop altogether. even the littlest things about him are good features. i always love it when he laughs, it sounds like something only heaven could make. and then oh god, the way his eyes curve into the cutest little crescents when he smiles. i could literally cry. and his voice, i'm not even going to lie. his voice is orgasmic. when he smiles, i'll smile. when he laughs, i'll laugh. when he cries, i'll cry. when he hurts, i'll hurt too. he's beautiful from the inside to the outside and he shouldn't be disliked for being something that those could only dream of being. i mean like look at it, out of most of the members, he had about one of the shortest trainee periods [ it was 4 months right? my memory is vague. ] ( which means alot thank you very much ) & was selected to be in exo - m with xiu min for a very special reason. he's my love light - the source of my inspiration; the reason why i dare step out of line and break away from my shell. sure, singing's not for me but he's the reason why i'll never stop practicing until i'm perfect. i wish i could just personally thank him for everything, reaching out to me and everything. sure we might never even meet in real life, let alone be bonded together by fate's red string. sure, when he gets married to some other girl that's not me, i'll be fine with it. he's one of my peter pan's and he'll be flying off with his wendy some day. but it's my duty as an exotic to just watch afar, somewhat like his guardian angel, as his tinker bell. i don't really expect much from him, considering he puts his all into everything and all. as long as he's happy, then i guess i'll be happy too. i think i'm gonna cry because of him, considering i've poured everything into this even though no one's gonna read it and stuff but oh well. c:

생일, 김종대. 나는 당신을 사랑 해요. ♥

how has 1 year passed so quickly? it only seems like yesterday when i realised that there was a new reality show starring teen top, and chanced upon another 7 young men, scratching my head in confusion, then rooting for them in every episode and finding myself falling more and more for their hardworking and persevering spirit. 

and after that, i found myself tracking the days down to their comeback date, and that spazzing out over their debut because the music video was so impressive, the way the challenging choreography looks so simple when they execute their crisp dance moves, and mainly the unique song and of course their amazing vocals and rapping which seem to blend in beautifully and perfectly with the beat.