#freeeeeeeee

“Classic moding is so fun! Why don’t I do this more often!? Oh right, the crushing responsibilities!”

this is a late-night, impulse decision, but i’m gonna be on hiatus until the end of december. it’s college application season, and not only is this quarter going to be insanely busy, but i need to get better at not procrastinating and using my time more wisely. also sleeping early, all of which tumblr is not exactly conducive for. so yeah! bye bye till 2019, folks!! 

Last April 2025. I got to work in this company na malayo sa usual work na kinukuha ko. I've been in freelance since graduating. I've always handled my own time (work and personal), the comfort of it was all under my control.

But last year, I needed something stable and consistent in addition to my usual projects kasi nagkaron ng employment issues ang mom and kuya ko. So I took the offer from this company that handles Telco/Sales bullshit.

Telco pa lang parang need mo na magback off e charot hahaha. Okay so story time. From training to transition. It was like playing for me. I really enjoyed it, siguro kasi it was new to me. Learning new things? I found it exciting. I excelled actually. From a team of 22, I was the only one who was endorsed by week 12. The rest were sent to continue the transition until week 16.

For months, I've managed to maintain the high metric scores and such. Habang tumatagal, yung playtime learning para sakin? Nakakadrain na. But still naiisip ko, I can still use working there as an escape from all the personal problems at home. It's 8 hours away from home, I'll take it.

But around October, I was promoted to the Tier 2 department. Dapat honored pa ko e noh? Napromote e. It didn't feel like that. It felt like "pinamigay" hahaha. I had anxiety attacks nung time na yun because first, I am not really good with handling drastic changes. Pero sige, kinaya ko naman. I thrived even. For months, I was consistently ranked 1 sa buong department. Sounds like a success story? No, it wasn't.

My health was affected, starting nung nalipat ako, which was by mid October. Umabot sa point na di na ako nakakakain, or kung kumain man ako, isinusuka ko. It went on until November. Before filing for a medical leave of absence. Hindi na ako nakakakain talaga. Pumapasok ako, pero walang kain puro inumin lang. To survive 5 shifts in a row, ang panawid ko lang ay mogu mogu dahil may jellies yun e diba.

Then something tragic happened. Hospitalized. Checked for so many times and akala ko I won't make it na, aray mo. So 1 month and a few days din yun na nawala ako sa company because LOA hihi.

Kahit papano namiss ko magwork dun. Naexcite ako to come back and meet my team and friends din. Third shift from the date na nareinstate ako from LOA? Nasuspend ako. Hahahaha! Lahat sila takang taka kung bakit ako may NTE. Pero sige, management decision e. Tinanggap ko. At least more pahinga diba? Few days ago, nilapag na NOD ng case ko. Nadefend, marereinstate. Babalik na ako sa work.

You know what happened? I was left to wait outside the office for almost 2 hours dahil di maclaim and reactivate badge ko and di ako pinapasok for that. Need daw to coordinate with my supervisor or operation head. So contact naman ako, bawal ang phones sa floor so di nabasa agad ng Operation head, supervisor ko was still on her way to work that time at di niya din nababasa (nakamotor kasi). For that long, nakailang isip na ako, contemplating whether ano ba tamang decision. Until 4am na. Dapat clocked in na ako sa system sana. Aayusin ko pa sana access codes ko and whatever. Dami nang nasayang na oras. Tapos wala pa rin macontact na superior. Di pa rin ako pinapapasok even with multiple updates. Nagplease din ako na icheck sa floor at pano mababasa messages kung bawal nga phone doon hello. Basta grabe yung hassle.

I decided to go home. Di na nga buo sa loob ko bumalik, dapat nga personal na lang ako papaalam pagbalik ko na magreresign at render na lang ako. Ganon pa dadanasin ko. Hehe! Ending sila pa yung nagpiplease bumalik daw ako and all that.

Supervisor: halika na. wag mo na muna ko iwan. sayang running rank 1 ka pa naman sa department.

Ang sarap sabihing "na para bang may bitaw yang pagiging rank 1 ko e. puro nga stress naidulot sa akin" hehe.

Ended up resigning immediately from my position. Sobrang gaan sa pakiramdam as in. Never thought yung pagsusuka ko and di pag-kain nang ayos e mareresolba nung nakapagresign ako.

Now I'm back to my usual projects. Managing my own time again and it's exhilarating. EXHILARATING?? charot hahahaha! Masaya makawala sa stressful environment. Plus sobrang bulok process ng client don hahaha deserve ang 70% outage recently charot HAHAHAHAHA.