#fourkin

to the leafy and the three who frequent this blog, i hope that you’re both doing alright after tpot 20! what an episode huh?

-four 🌀, bfdi/bfb/tpot (#✿)

i remember a fair few of my kins being therians, which is weird because i dont consider myself as a therian now

as uzi i was a black cat and a crow therian, as deku i believe i was a bunny therian?

and then as luz i do remember myself being a fictionkin, but i dont kin that character now. i learned the term fictionkin differently to how i did learned it in this life. as luz i was just using tumblr and one of my friends was a fictionkin and i later learned i was too!!! anyway i was a fictionkin of the great witch azura, which is part of why i was so fascinated with the series! i mightve told amity about that too, im not sure

alas there is no way for me to read that book series in this life as not much is known about it in canon and i dont have memories of the actual book series despite how much it meant to me

i feel like as four i probably knew of some kintypes just because i was a multiverse traveller but :P

-uzi 🦇(murder drones), izuku 🍵(my hero academia), luz 🐍(the owl house), and four 🌀(bfdi/bfb/tpot), #✿

-four 🌀, bfdi/bfb/tpot (#✿)

i recently became a huge fan of bfdi, but i watched it a bit out of order. i started with tpot, season 5, and then went back to bfdi, season 1, bfdia, season 2, and then to bfb, season 4. after i watched tpot, i ended up kinfirming four.

while i was watching bfdi, i just had this veeery strong feeling id watched it before. specifically while it was airing. and i was like "huh, thats odd, ive definitely never seen this before!" and i figured it was a kin memory but i couldnt figure out which kin it was for. my best guess was evan afton fnaf but that timeline wouldnt fit at all since i died in 1983 and bfdi didnt come out until WAY later.

anyway so i just finished bfb where four is the host of the season, and as it turns out hes canonically the biggest fan of bfdi, watched it while it aired, and even memorized a ton of the episodes. the flashback scene of him watching bfdi perfectly matched my memories, even down to the setting and watching it alone in a dark room.

there is honestly nothing more kinaffirming for me then having memories and then later realizing it perfectly matches up to a kin

-four 🌀, bfdi/bfb/tpot (#✿)

like, i kin frisk undertale and have memories from the pacifist route. but im also questioning if i have a genocide canon, but that makes me feel invalid becasuse i dont think thats something a "true" pacifist frisk kin would do.

(i know theyre the same character, but still)

or like, i kin pencil from bfdi/tpot, but i also kin four from bfdi/bfb/tpot. pencil is terrified of four and has genuine ptsd with them. it feels weird for me to be both of them, and that a "true" pencil kin would never kin four as well

i understand that people, myself included, are complicated, and different characters can act as different aspects of yourself and so dont all need to match up in a clean way. i just wish that it was easier for me to accept these different parts of myself and how they mesh together in my identity

-#✿