Not going to lie, I'm not going to be able to transition until over half my life is over and that's only starting hormones. Not the surgeries I would need. But this is only possible at all if the government where I am doesn't just outright ban transition its entirety. Plus, I'll start out micro dosed, and if my levels are technically within the male range, they will refuse to up my dose because of my, "precious, delicate, afably, wombnly, breedable body," even if I'm bleeding monthly or still definitely experiencing more of an estrogen typical hormone cycle and getting minimal results from testosterone.
What's even the point? Honestly should probably just live as a miserable tomboy and live vicariously through trans guys who actually are able to transition at good ages. There's genuinely nothing I can do. There's genuinely no way I could pass either. I was "blessed," with an "unrealistic" hyperfeminine body even cissies would kill for. People will say it's just my dysphoria talking because I'm just a hysterical gi— sorry, poo— sorry, little bi— sorry, I mean uh little, insecure, poisoned by toxic masculinity boy. I would prove with pictures and measurements, but I know better than to put majorly identifying information online.
Honestly, if I can't transition before my 26th or 27th birthday I'm just going to kms, if I'm single. If I'm not, then I'd have to break things off first. Because bodily decline starts and regeneration slows and starts going backwards at 25, at and ~25 is when my bone-density gets permanently estrogenized and continues to get weaker. It'll also be when it gets harder to gain and maintain muscle no matter whether on estrogen or not, basically capping my potential gains more than they already were. Any potential height growth, while already unlikely, will be completely off the table. Any potential results to do with the growth of parts or masculinization beyond losing hair is going to be severely weaker or just not there.
I'd just get stupid tranny voice and a receding hairline. I'd just be fucked, there wouldn't be any point. I actually need to look like a man and sound like one. Not look like some fucked up tomboy or prepubescent little boy.
"It's never too late to start," yeah technically you can always start, but there's always a time limit to results. If you start when your body has started its decline or is falling apart, good luck getting meaningful results. Especially before your life is halfway or more over.
