I'm foolish as fuck so I convince myself I can survive isolation better then the normal lad because I've experienced chronic depression and emotional neglect since early childhood so I gots experience yanno, but then I catch myself constantly getting into arguments with people who are not here anymore and realize if anyone was in the room they would be terrified at how in my own head I can get. I think its a way for my brain to get some social/emotional stimulation. I feed it nothing new so it just regurgitates the same things over and over. I just don't know what else to think about except everything bad that has ever happened to me.











