#flashback mention

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aah, I'm so glad you loved it!! here you go anon, I hope this gives you very mean ideas hehe <3

(here is the first list of twin whump ideas)

Whumper tortures Whumpee in front of Caretaker. Caretaker begs and screams the entire time, until his voice is gone and Whumper still doesn’t stop, delighting in both their screams while they last, and then in Whumpee's cries and Caretaker’s choked sobs when his voice is too ragged to be heard anymore

Caretaker telling Whumpee her favorite story from their childhood to distract her from the pain/fear/nightmares

Alternatively: Caretaker telling her a funny story from their childhood to distract her, and making her laugh. But her ribs are hurt or she has open wounds, and the laughter is followed by a pained gasp that shatters his heart

Whumpee pretends to be okay in front of Caretaker, because she knows how devastated her twin is to see her in pain. She only allows herself to cry at night, when she knows he’s already asleep. But Caretaker hasn’t slept well since their capture, and every night he listens to her crying and pretends not to, because even though it tears him apart to let her suffer in silence, he knows that thinking he’s buying into her Nothing Is Wrong act makes her stronger, and they both need as much strength as they can get to face this

Caretaker becomes so desperate when Whumper tortures Whumpee in front of him, that he ends up even more bloodied than her from pushing so hard and for so long against the restraints that they cut deep into his skin

This one could go for either captivity or after rescue: Caretaker holding Whumpee in his arms, and rocking her slowly back and forth like their parents used to do to calm them down when they were kids, whispering against her hair about better times in a futile attempt to take her away from the pain as she nuzzles up against his chest and pretends it works

In case you're not thinking about captivity: Whumpee gets hurt and tries to pretend there's nothing wrong, but Caretaker knows her since always and it takes him one look at her to know something happened, and barely five minutes to get the truth to spill out of her mouth. And then, after he takes care of her, Caretaker goes after Whumper to make them pay

Alternatively: twins that haven't seen each other for years because of a fight, but as soon as Whumpee gets badly injured she shows up at Caretaker's door with blood on her clothes and tears in her eyes, and he doesn't think twice before helping Whumpee inside and taking care of her like nothing ever changed between them. And of course, when she is asleep and her wound is dressed, he goes after Whumper >:)

And for recovery! After the whump happens, sometimes Whumpee stares off into space with a lost expression, and Caretaker immediately knows where her mind’s gone. So he rushes to her whenever it happens, takes her somewhere safe and softly talks her out of it. It happens when they are in public a few times, and though he gets side-eyes for acting like his sister’s eyes going a little unfocused is the end of the world, they aren’t the ones who hear her scream in her sleep or watched her thrash and plead for mercy. So Caretaker runs, and knows he’s done the right thing when Whumpee blinks teary eyes at him and buries her head into his chest

(back to captivity scenario) Caretaker can’t sleep well after the rescue, because he is constantly worried about his sister, and when he does, it’s to wake up with nightmares of her being hurt again, and him being helpless to stop it once more.

And a little dialogue since I did one in the first part too:

“Do you think I’ll ever go back?” she whispers idly one night, the room too dark for him to see her but her voice soft enough for Caretaker to know what Whumpee is talking about.

He still asks it though.

“What do you mean?”

“Go back to who I used to be.”

Trigger warnings: This au follows the sides as abuse survivors. Also, obviously, tws for panic attacks and flashbacks. 

It does make sense, nonnie. I’m glad he’s there for you, and from your ask it sounds like he’s genuinely trying to help you, so the advice I’m going to give you is coming from a place of me assuming you have a healthy/trusting relationship that’s just in need of some communication and boundary-establishing (it happens!). But please, if you don’t think this advice is right for you, trust your gut over me!

First, let's make one thing clear: what he’s doing is not okay, and it's not something you should simply "let happen". Neither should you feel guilty for not being able to switch off your pain. From personal experience, when I'm having a flashback, anxiety attack or just a really bad day, the best thing whoever's with me can do is to follow my lead (for example, going with me to somewhere quiet so I can calm down, or doing something soothing together, or helping me distract myself). In my relationship, in particular, when one of us is having a bad day or a bad moment, the other tries to accommodate (within our own possibilities and boundaries, ofc!) to whatever the other needs in the moment, whether that’s space/to be alone, hugs, to talk about it, distractions, some nice takeaway and Netflix...

In contrast, what your boyfriend is doing lately seems to be assuming what you need, instead of asking, and taking the lead in trying to make you feel better instead of following yours and listening to your needs.

Again, I don’t know how your relationship is just from this ask, but assuming he’s genuinely trying to help you, I think the best thing to do would be to have an honest conversation about it. If (and only if) that’s what feels right for you, you could acknowledge the fact that he’s trying to help you and you appreciate him a lot for it, but tell him sexual things are not what you need in those moments, and that it’s hard for you to establish boundaries when you’re upset  (which I think is the case from the way you phrased your ask, but again, please say only what feels right for you to say!), so you need him to not try to turn you on when you're upset.

If you do talk with him about it, I’d also recommend trying to avoid phrasing your feelings in an accusatory way, and concentrating on how you feel, on what your needs are, and on the fact that you know he'll be understanding about it; this can make it easier for the two of you to work together rather than against each other!

And, nonnie, remember that it’s always okay to say no to sexual things, or to touch, or to anything that will make you uncomfortable in any given moment, even if it’s your partner doing it, and even if he has the best intentions! Sometimes we want to help someone feel better and we mess up and do the wrong thing, but that’s okay; it doesn’t mean the other person is attacking us or mad at us when they point it out. In fact, if we care about the other person, we want to be told what we're doing wrong so we can do better from now on!