#fitbir

CW: 221lbs

This month hasn’t been the best for my health, or for my boyfriend’s.

My boyfriend has a carcinoid tumor in his small intestine. He’s been having pain, nausea, and vomiting for a while now but the last six months or so have been really bad for him. Now with that diagnosis, he has to get a bowel resection and if it comes back as cancer, he’ll have a lot of other things to have to deal with. He’s 22 years old and extremely healthy.

I have been binge eating and no longer caring about my body. I’ve gained weight and overall I just feel like crap. I’d like to say that this diagnosis has been the cause of it but I wouldn’t be being 100% truthful. I’ve been going back to old habits since before we found out about his tumor. It’s definitely gotten worse since, but I can’t blame it all on that.

Today is our three year anniversary. We’re going out to dinner (if he’s feeling better) and tonight is going to be my last bad meal. I have -got- to do better.

For our anniversary he got me an Aria 2 Fitbit scale so I’m excited to start using that, and to start tracking more comprehensive numbers and percentages. I’ll be posting more about that another day, though.

Today I removed two of my wisdom teeth, so I’ve been mostly sleeping and feeling sorry for myself. I tried to go for a walk with my dog in the evening, to reach my steps, but after 30 minutes I felt pretty beat up. No worries tho. I have some trouble eating, so I guess it’s OK to take it easy.

Yesterday’s walk!