#findingmicah

May 7 2024 Just learned that yesterday marked a year since the first ‘are you’ was said between Jere and Bojan. This “joke” brings me way more joy than it should. aesthetical quality of the pitch change whenever they say it. The dorky smiles they send each other. The playfulness in the wording. Seeing a compilation with the ‘are you’s almost made me teary eyed. Man, I love these two more than is healthy. This phrase was my favourite vocal stim last year and will probably continue to be for 2024.

March 2 2024 I am in Finland. Me and a friend (@formulalakana) went kä sightseeing and everything seems surreal. Käärijä grinning down on us from the Vantaa mural. Exploring the Prisma where Jere got kicked out as a teen. Staying at his apartment. I’m squealing of happiness!! I was especially surprised to find how comfortable the bolero was –it fit just right. I fit just right. And this is a feeling I’ve felt more and more since getting into käärijä: he makes me feel okay. Good enough. Just right.

October 21 2023 Still sick so let’s talk about birthday boy Jere and the transflag. In Berlin Jere picked up a transflag and he was so confused. It turned out he had no idea what the flag even means so we (the audience) had to tell him. Jere really listened to us and genuinely seemed honored to have been trusted with the flag. I can’t type this without crying. I love this man. I took so many pictures of this moment. It was magical. (btw love the ‘Jere can’t be labelled bc he doesn’t know gender’ theories).

February 4 2024 Here’s one for my fellow Joker Out fans. Reading through a handful of Damon Baker picture analysis yesterday I have to say I feel like Nace. I had heard he had some insecurities with his body image yet it took me until now to realize how much he is suffering under it. And I get it. While I feel a better than even just a year ago, I still often struggle to find my body acceptable if not desirable. This week has been rough. I hope his week was better – he deserves to be confident with himself.