This is kind of a vent ahead, sorry mpc I need to get this off my chest.
One video has made me have so many realizations all in one. I see where people animate me being angry at Stanford, and people are saying they wish they couldāve seen me be angry at least once.
Honestly though, I am angry at Ford. I do feel it, but back then, I didnāt feel anything. Kinda numb but I was more a forgiving person, too.
Now that I think about it, it was always āBill this- Bill that- My muse-ā BUT WHAT ABOUT ME?? I did EVERYTHING for you, Ford. I left my OWN FAMILY that I never returned to, just for YOU. I didnāt have the chance to raise Tate at all, I gave EVERYTHING up for YOU. Why? Because I LOVED YOU. I ACTUALLY CARED for you. I went and helped because I also thought you wanted to see me again, but you were.. different. You always pushed me away. So yeah, OF COURSE Iām mad.
I dropped EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE THAT I canāt get back, only for you. I poured my HEART and SOUL all out to you. Do I mean nothing?? Yet, Iām the one, who felt like I needed to apologize for leaving you! Iām starting to realize I donāt need to apologize for anything.
Iāve thought about this for a good few weeks now, maybe a month even. I donāt know why I didnāt realized it sooner. I hate that I STILL love Ford, even if he wasnāt good to me and I HATE that. It physically hurt me to type this out, because I donāt want to be angry. But I am.
-A very upset Fiddleford McGucket (Gravity Falls)