Sometimes i kinda wish that the suicide scar carried through to retribution. When i play Beck sometimes i cant help but see them during scenes/lines like the outsider fish lines wishing instead for death. Imagining julia's foot slowly pressing down on their neck until they gargle and something snaps. Wishing steel's hands pulling them into a hug would sink through their back instead and pull out everything keeping them alive. More of those moments like the one where they can almost make herald drop them.
The outsider scar definitely suits their internal alienation the best, seconded by the friendless scar, but if we view the scar as a connection to heartbreak, and in that moment heartbreak connected to beck's intrusive internal exhaustion that just wants it all to END because of the alienation and hopelessness (the emotion which i see as overriding all the other emotions heartbreak could have latched onto in that moment) that they feel, idk, i just feel like there's a lot that could have been done with that. Not mad or anythin that it aint there in the books anymore, just. Considering what could have been.
Beck holds a general EXHAUSTION and desire for escape after everything they've been through that overrides any other emotion (alienation, blame, anger, hunger, need for control, etc) that they feel, and that could have been represented pretty well through a continuation of the suicide scar.

















