Fellow honest x reader (not yuu)
Summary: random summer night with the two of you sharing feelings? Established relationship btw so he ain't rejecting no one eheheh. Fluff and slight angst I think? The most they do is kiss so it's sfw.
Notes: sorry if it sucks but it's been some months since I've written anything and english is isn't my first language, in any case enjoy! :D
It was rare to see him so calm. The night was just like the past one, quiet and warm, that type of warmth that doesn't make it uncomfortable to wear a shirt but that at the same time still makes you want to drink something cold, because you know that if you drank tea it would get too hot and then that balance would be shattered. He didn't seem to be paying much attention to his surroundings, then again this was the only time of the day where he could relax, even if a little, so why take it away from him.
The usual smell of smoke lingered in the air, a thin cloud making it a little harder to see him as clearly as you wanted. He never stopped smoking, since the first day you met he always had a cigar or cigarette between his fingers, it almost amazed you how his voice didn't change that much even after all these years of consuming them. Not that you could blame him, his life had never been easy on him and if he found peace in a piece of paper that tasted like nicotine then he could keep on smoking as much as he wanted, it would probably hurt him more if he stopped this habit than keep on smoking.
Gidel wasn't around, not that it surprised you, just like his brother he usually used the late evening for himself, even if he didn't smoke he still needed some time alone, just like everybody else.
You kept on staring at him, looking at him with too much love in your eyes, even if he wasn't a nice person, even if he didn't take care of himself as much as he took care of his brother, even if the shirt he was wearing was probably the same he wore the week before because, when you don't have time and money, every little thing counts and a new piece of clothing isn't in those calculations. He wasn't the best, and he knew it, he knew it since he was little because in a world like this he would have never been enough even if he kept on trying, even if he had enough magic to go to school, to make a name for himself, one associated with bravery, power... and not a sketchy place where he had to ๐ต๐ณ๐ข๐ง๐ง๐ช๐ค ๐ฉ๐ถ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฏ๐ด to survive.
The cloud of smoke was now on you, staining your clothes with that smell that never wants to be washed of, that smell that's better than a perfume when associated with something nice, with ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ nice, and he was, to you. Not to the students, not to his boss, not to the people that he had to convince to come to a magic place just to be sold as puppets, but to ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ.
To ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ because ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ never criticized his antics, because ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ never complained if he didn't have the energy to keep everything tidy, because ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ never mentioned his lack of knowledge because of the system that failed him.
To ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ because he knew he loved you since the first time you met.
The yellow light of the nearby street lamp was the only thing making his figure visible to your eyes, a sight that never failed to make you smile, even if only internally sometimes.
"Doll, you are staring..."
He wasn't annoyed, even if his tone would make anyone think that, he wasn't and you knew it.
And there it was, that light smile he wore only when around you, one which took too much time to finally see, and now that you could you would never be bored by.
"Well that's good to know because I wasn't gonna stop anyway"
The sound of his laugh ringing in your ears was the only thing distracting you from the way his canines were shining thanks to what little moonlight reached the two of you. As much as you wanted to compliment him for every little thing about his appearance and personality it always felt as if he would take it as a joke and never believe you, despite how many times you said you loved him.
Well maybe there's a first time for everything... who knows.
"Have I ever told you how pretty you are?"
The silence after that was almost deafening.
Damn him and his non existent self esteem.
"I don't just ๐ด๐ข๐บ ๐ด๐ฐ I know so"
Even if your eyes were searching for his they could never meet, thanks to his brilliant idea of ๐ต๐ถ๐ณ๐ฏ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ง๐ถ๐ค๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฅ every time you tried to have a heartfelt conversation.
At least deciding to sit on his lap made it easier to look at him, the only downside being the two shades of red adorning his face making it harder to see his freckles in the night.
His voice sounded muffled, probably thanks to how much he was pressing his face in the palm of your hand, surely to try and keep on hiding himself.
Slowly, too slowly, he decided that maybe looking at you wasn't so bad, despite how much his head told him not to. His ears were twitching, probably the only thing expressing how he was feeling seeing the situation.
"๐๐ง ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ญ๐ญ"
What he wanted to say was something along the lines of "of course now that you are in my arms" but it sounded too cheesy even for him.
Yeah he sure was, considering how hard his hands were gripping your waist and how he began to hide his face in the crook of your neck.
"It's okay love, ๐ช๐ต'๐ด ๐ฐ๐ฌ๐ข๐บ"
His grip on you tightening only meant one thing, he was feeling worse than usual. Slowly moving your hands up his back you finally reached the back of his head, fluffy hair the color of caramel now between your fingers, a hum of approval murmured near your ear while your fingertips begun to gently stroke his ears. You knew he liked it, it was one of the first things he told you when you begun seeing each other and, after so much time you couldn't count how many occasions ended this way.
Finally his hands started to loose that bruising grip that had you almost blocked in the same position for too much time to be considered comfortable, deciding to move them on your hips to help keeping you on his lap.
"Do you think that Gidel will come here soon?"
"Probably not, he's usually walking near the ferris wheel at this time, going back here would take more than twenty minutes"
"What do you mean by tha-"
Unfortunately for him his time to speak was cut short by your mouth on his, shutting him up completely. With a hand still on the back of his head he didn't have many options but to keep the same pace as yours. As much as he didn't have money to buy things like chapstick he still had pretty soft lips, a nice contrast to the sharp teeth behind them.
Pulling away was always the hardest part, the both of you unsure on who had to separate from the other first, resulting in a rather awkward series of random messy kisses near the lips but never perfectly on them because of the dizziness.
Small fleeting pecks were now placed on his neck, slowly going back up to once again reach his face. Finally able to look in his eyes ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ were now the one left speechless. He ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ look as flushed as you thought, except for the smile that adorned his face. A genuine one, probably the most beautiful one you have ever seen him wear. He was stunning, he really was. Be it the messy hair, the freckled cheeks, the honey colored irises or, in this case, the small smile gracing his lips.
You probably ended up with the same expression because the next thing you knew was him looking a little worried and asking why did you look so happy.
"If I knew I wouldn't have asked no?"
He was smirking, he knew what you were thinking but he wanted to hear it, he would never get tired of hearing you say it.
"I love you, ๐ธ๐ข๐ด๐ฏ'๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฐ๐ฃ๐ท๐ช๐ฐ๐ถ๐ด?"
And of course it was, it was as clear as day but he had to listen to you say it, he had to watch the way your lips moved while you said it because damn it, it was probably the most addicting thing he had ever come across.
"๐ ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฉ, ๐บ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฉ ๐ช๐ต ๐ธ๐ข๐ด"
His heartbeat was calmer now, it surely was easier to hear when you face was pressed against his chest, feeling him move even so slightly with every breath he took. The positions were reversed now, his hand on the back of your head, making sure that if you fell asleep you wouldn't hit it anywhere. His other arm was still around you, keeping you close, almost shielding you from any possible danger.
The night was still warm, summer still present even if now coming to a close. At this point you were the one covered in moonlight, a blanket on your skin making you glow in an almost ethereal light. If he didn't know any better he would think you weren't from this world, then again, maybe it wasn't that far fetched.
"Nothing to worry about doll, just asking"
"๐๐ง ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ด๐ข๐บ ๐ด๐ฐ..."
Your voice was already laced with sleep, unable to form a complete sentence but luckily still able to process what he was saying.
"Do you remember the first time we met?"
"That time I told you that one day I'd tell you a secret, the most important one... to me at least"
"๐๐ฐ ๐ฐ๐ฏ... ๐๐ฎ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ณ๐ต๐ช๐ฏ๐จ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต๐ง๐ฐ๐ญ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ธ"
"Sure sure but for how much of a secret it is you probably have already figured it out..."
You were probably sleeping now.
"๐'๐ท๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ, ๐ ๐ข๐ญ๐ธ๐ข๐บ๐ด ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ ๐ด๐ช๐ฏ๐ค๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ช๐ณ๐ด๐ต ๐ฅ๐ข๐บ ๐ธ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ต... ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐'๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฑ ๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ซ๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ต๐ช๐ญ๐ญ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฅ๐ข๐บ ๐ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฆ"
You might be sleeping but even if you didn't hear his words just now he was sure you would be hearing them again when he'd finally find the courage to ask you to marry him... even if in his own way.
