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ššššš, šššššššš ! Ā itās boone ( h / h, 20+ ) and iām here to reintroduce you all to a muse of mine who was here not long ago, but has made her returnĀ ! honestly speaking, sheās basically the same as she was before. the only change that made to her is her birthdate and natal chart so it feels more harmonious and fitting with her personality, but nevertheless, i present to you lilyās maknae, lead vocal, and sub rapper:Ā šššššššš ššš !Ā sheās still a singer-songwriter who grew up adoring and singing along to jazz musicians, r&b singers, and now, broadway musicals. sheās a bonafide feature / duet queen with a gentle soul and hardworking edge. if youāre at all interested in plotting with us, pleaseĀ ššššš š ā” šš šššš šššš and iāll reach outĀ !
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born and raised in hellās kitchen, new york, usa. mom and dad worked to the bone to pay the bills in their overpriced apartment and were straight-up never home. momās an er nurse, dadās an emt/firefighter, and michelle was primarily raised by her uncle and his band of misfits. they genuinely were a quintessential chosen family of jazz musicians, failed rockstars, and drag queens that found each other for support, and michelle was essentially raised as their daughter.
this chosen family of herās had a heavy hand in her development and growth. they not only taught her to be independent, and hard-working, but they were her gateway into the world of music. they taught her its theory, and how to play the guitar, and the piano, and how to sing, and they really supported her in all of her artistic endeavors; nourishing her soul so much; making her feel so seen.
michelleās always been the obsessive type when it comes to things sheās interested in, so it didnāt take her a long time to pick up instruments and learn them, and she also spent many, many, many hoursĀ āperfectingā her vocal chops. she regards artists like billie holiday, ella fitzgerald, alicia keys, chaka khan, and many others as her largest influencesāstudying their techniques intensely.
her early childhood was largely spent in the arts, and as she aged, she didnāt stop, but began to branch out as a teenager; making friends with questionable people, doing stupid things, and getting in trouble. however, this didnāt last too long because the instant that her uncle caught wind of a bc entertainment open audition in manhattan, he signed her upāknowing full-well that sheād succeed. his hunch was right, she laid down great vocals, and moved to korea.
upon arrival, she didnāt speak the language at all. her parents were too busy to teach her, and her uncle didnāt really take on that responsibility either, so bc entertainment had her primarily focus on learning korean. that, as well as dancing. they learned early on that she could manage her own vocals fairly well, so they wanted her to focus on strengthening what she lacked more than anything else. sheās a hard worker and committed herself to nothing but that for her entire trainee period.
she debuted as still not the best dancer and barely somewhat fluent in korean, and lilyās success was apparent from the get-go. all of it happened so fast, honestly giving her whiplash, and from the ages of fifteen to nineteen, she kept her head down and worked tirelessly. life as a public figure kept her mostly in check, and being the youngest member often awarded her sympathy from the public even if she messed up during an interview or had botched pronunciation. though, around twenty, she started to realize that her entire childhood was spent working, and she never really had the chance to live a normal adolescence. this caused her to have something of a breakdown.
alcohol + substance use tw / michelle started drinking more often, even in public settings sometimes, and along with that came leaning on other substances to help her escape from her lonely reality. it wasnāt something she ever wanted to do, but coping with how her life has gone and how she didnāt really feelĀ ānormalā for a long time was hard on her. it was a dark period of time, one where lots of music was written and lots of lessons learned. it wasnāt until somewhat recently that sheās begun to pick herself up and dust herself off.
right now, sheās mostly at peace with her past and with her career; finding the good in it again. sheās revived her love of music by getting more involved in her own creations and wanting to see them through to actually being released. sheās always been too shy and guarded with them to share them, but sheās having a change of heart recently. sheās looking forward to an eventual solo dĆ©but and taking things one day at a time; back on the grind.
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sheās an impeccably hard worker and has rather obsessive tendencies. honestly, itās not shocking to me that sheās become so successful. sheās someone who has big dreams and huge aspirations, as well as the sense of practicality and diligence to make them happen. thereās nothing she loves more than being able to say sheās earned all of her successes, and that sheās the one who was able to nurture her talents to where they are today. as a kid, she became almost addicted to learning how to play the guitar and piano; working at it tirelessly until she was pleased with herself. it was the same with singing, and still is, to be honest. sheās constantly working on her voice to ensure that itās in tip-top shape; having often been hailed for her singing above all else.
however, these obsessive qualities also turn towards other people. despite being of relatively clear mind, michelle becomes attracted to individuals that are complicated and hard to read. sometimes this has been totally fine, but other times, itās introduced her to some malicious people. sheās had a bad history of falling in love with the wrong people; those who take advantage of her delicate soul and aching need to fix their problems.
perfectionist to a massive fault. sure, this comes in handy sometimes, but it becomes unhealthy when sheās in the studio rerecording her vocal takes a hundred times over to get them just right. sheās very hard on herself, too, and will always say that itās because she knows sheās capable of doing great things, so when she doesnāt, she needs to whip herself into shape. this trait, though, also makes her softly self-deprecating. this was more of a problem when she was younger, though. nowadays, sheās much kinder to herself.
being that sheās recently become sober and has been working a lot on her mental health, sheās chilled out a lot as of late. her sloppy days are in the past for now, and sheās done a lot of work figuring out her faults and healthily trying to process her trauma. this makes her a pretty solid rock for people who need her, and sheās a ride or die friend. though, she can be quite naggy and fussy with people, but mostly because she wants to see them do better, as well. think of like, an annoying older sister that reminds you of your faults sometimes in order to give you a reality check, or because she knows you can do better and that youāre not a flop.
because of the want to see people improve, she can sometimes say some pretty harsh things that come across as heavy critiques. sheās learning to be more tactful in that sense, but itās a difficult habit to break. she never has bad intentions though, but realizes that when people ask her for advice, she needs to use more sensitivity instead of logic sometimes.
has so many notebooks overflowing with songs that sheās written over the last few years. i envision her music and her current style mirroring that of baek yerin, as well as bibi when sheās feeling particularly inspired by modern r&b, but mostly yerin. itās a little hard for her to open up about her feelings because she catches herself overthinking them all of the time, but her heart is present in all of her music. every ounce of it is in the lyrics she writes and the notes she sings. itās overwhelming at times, even to listeners.
