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Five years ago, Eunyoung ended one of her most meaningful romantic relationships for apparent no reason.

Hwang Jiho was a good friend of hers during college. They met in the academic setting and started getting closer as the months went by. If anyone asked her, Eunyoung would have said that she didn't go to university with the intentions of knowing people or getting a boyfriend, but as younger people say: Jiho was a man written by a woman. 

She didn't come to this café to reminisce about the old relationship that she ended. And it's not even the first time she came to this place since their break-up, but as soon as she seats by the window in a similar spot where they had their fated conversation, it all comes rushing to her.

Eunyoung was never the most popular member of her already flop group, so it's not like she had many crazy and possessive fans to worry about, so when she went to university, it was almost as if she was a regular student. Jiho and Eunyoung met during the reception, and maybe because they were both older than the majority of the other students, they just clicked and got along together.

 One thing led to another, and classmates became friends who ended up sticking together a lot more often in and out of campus. They started their relationship six months after becoming closer, and for ten months, Eunyoung was very happy.

Jiho was probably the one ordinary relationship she ever had. No ego fights or endless talks about how the entertainment industry was starting to destroy their souls. It was simple and good, and he made her happy. Jiho made her feel those butterflies in her stomach, and they went on dates in places that she never thought she would ever go. They went on new adventures and sometimes had the most comfortable time staying at each other's apartments. They had a lot in common, but Jiho was the calming force that balanced Eunyoung's artist energy. 

She would be lying if she said that at some point in the ten months they were together, Eunyoung didn't think they could spend the rest of their lives together. And then she got scared.

A commitment wasn't the thing that scared her away, and to be fair, Eunyoung doesn't know what pushed her as far as calling things off with Jiho . They weren't going through any complicated moments in their relationship neither parts were uninterested or cheating on the other. As far as she's aware, she was still as in love with him as he was with her. 

Many outside factors might have added to this. Eunyoung's father's death, Calypso's recurrent problems to stand their ground and release songs, and money issues. None of it justifies it, but those were the reasons she used it at the time and even now.

It has been five years since, and she doesn't expect him to have the same phone number, but Eunyoung tries anyway.

[ TEXT THREAD WITH: 황지호 ] hello, this is eunyoung. it has been a while since, but do you have some time?

She doesn't expect him to reply, but she still grasps her phone. And then it vibrates.

Here Comes the Sun - The Beatles

Little darling The smiles returning to the faces Little darling It seems like years since it's been here

I have to start this one by saying that, even if a movie was made out of Eunyoung’s life, it wouldn’t be all that exciting, but it would have a very good soundtrack at the very least. Once upon a time, when Eunyoung was still a little kid, and financial crisis was still upon many people’s heads, Eunyoung’s parents weren’t having the greatest of times. They might not be musicians, but they played this song at the house numerous times. She doesn’t think they even knew what they were singing about, but there is something about music that is just magical, isn’t there?

Five O'clock World - The Vogues

Trading my time for the pay I get Living on money that I aint made yet I’ve been going trying to make my way While I live for the end of the day (yeah, yeah)

What can she say? She has been working in the industry for more than ten years now and just started making some decent money in the last couple of months. If that was a thing, you’d have seen Eunyoung working some hours in some type of odd job because it paid more than being an idol, but as a singer, she persevered. She goes on trying to make her way.

Back to December - Taylor Swift

And then the cold came, the dark days When fear crept into my mind You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

I wouldn’t leave Taylor Swift out of this one, are you kidding? This one is about a failed relationship that she had with an NPC that I’ll further develop somehow. Thing is: her partner might have been the best thing that has ever happened to Eunyoung, and instead of diving into it, she broke things off. It doesn’t mean she wasn’t heartbroken at the end of it.

Last Hope - Paramore

Every night I try my best to dream Tomorrow makes it better Then I wake up to the cold reality And not a thing has changed

I imagine this song would play at the two-thirds part of the movie when things were going well, and then something happens, and everything goes down the drain. Eunyoung had many of those moments when she thought the light at the end of the tunnel was visible and ended up disappointed when things didn’t work out.

On Top of the World - Imagine Dragons

'Cause I'm on top of the world, 'ey I'm on top of the world, 'ey Waiting on this for a while now Paying my dues to the dirt I've been waiting to smile, 'ey

Openness to experience

I think that if she had taken this test a couple of years ago, her results for openness would be drastically different. She has always been curious and imaginative, but it was only in recent years that she started to pay closer attention to details, and let herself connect and feel all those emotions. She's a singer, so in a way, being connected to her feelings should be a must, but her real link to that only bloosomed in recent years. 67% is quite high, however, I do disagree with the part where they describe unpredictability or lack of focus. I think Eunyoung is one of the easiest people to read. She wears her feelings in her sleeves and is straight to the point most of the time. She might not have a lot done, but it's not for lack of focus but for lack of opportunity.

Conscientiousness

I'm not surprised that this one isn't higher, and that's mainly because of this sentence: "Strive for achievement against measures or outside expectations." It's not a secret that Eunyoung has been struggling for years now to know her place not only in the industry but in Calypso, too. She has always wanted to be under the public's eye, but in the moment she realized there was no use in trying to rise her popularity, Eunyoung simply stagnated.

Extraversion

Eunyoung is an extrovert. She's the person who talks to everyone in the room and shakes hands, and knows everyone's names. She knows your birthday, and even your cat's name for all that matter. The thing about her is that she is very good at small talk and sharing useless information. She likes being surrounded by people and enjoys going out for social interactions. It doesn't surprise me that it's her highest number.

Agreeableness

I recently noticed that Eunyoung is the second oldest muse in Famed, and while that wasn't always the case, I think that being the oldest in most situations, independetly of which version I brough of her has this responsible effect on her. She's not the type of person who confronts others a whole lot and prefers to solve things with as little conflict as possible. Of course, that's not a hundred percent of the time, since she's neither a judge or an angel, but she has that leadership skills that helps her in social situations.

Neuroticism

January 2009

The day Eunyoung signed with Dimensions and became a trainee. At that time, she was a hundred percent sure that she would succeed and believed wholeheartedly that she was meant for stardom. This was the first time Eunyoung faced people who were a lot more capable, and talented than her.

July 9th, 2010

The day of her debut couldn't be left aside. Despite being disastrous in Eunyoung's opinion, this is her start in the industry. Not many people know her from this moment, but she only had the chance to do whatever she did in the past decade thanks to her debut. She doesn't have fond memories of the time since she was a little ball of anxiety, but it still is a very important moment in her life.

May 8th, 2016

The day her dad passes away. Calypso had just started promotions for Wild, and she couldn't attend the funeral because her schedule clashed with all the rest of the ceremonies and preparations for the burial. She couldn't take a flight or drive there for the first couple of days after his death. She did take a break after the first week of promotions to be with her family, though.

March 2022

Eunyoung thought a lot about giving up on being an idol before they went viral and started topping the charts. She thought about putting her degree to use and was even looking for jobs, talking to her former teachers and university colleagues. If it wasn't for their explosive surge of popularity, Eunyoung wouldn't be an idol anymore.

2. What is your muse’s fatal flaw / biggest flaw? (108)

Eunyoung has a strong will, but she has become a lot softer in the past few years. She tends to put herself down or lower her expectations way too often. Who can blame her after the years she had, after all, but even now that they are doing well, Eunyoung can be read as a pessimist. She doesn't think this fame will last, and if it does, she won't be one of the beneficiated people. Eunyoung is the best person to have when someone is feeling down, but she refuses the favor back and believes she has to go through her stuff by herself. She self-isolates very easily.

3. What is one of your muse’s core values? Name a situation where they might consider sacrificing/changing this core value. (105)

Eunyoung is very dependable, so I'll go with dependability for this one. Eunyoung tries to be true to her word always. She's straightforward with her opinions and with her actions, and she'll let others lean on her and do what she proposed to do with no more and no less. To make her not follow that pattern, she would have to be convinced of something else. She's very stubborn at times, so that might be a little bit of a challenge, but regardless, if she's convinced that another option is the most agreeable, she might go back with her words and act with another plan.

4. What does your character want more than anything else in the world? Is this a conscious desire or a subconscious one? (110)

She wants to have a life with no regrets, and at this moment, it's more of a subconscious wish than not. Eunyoung already had that in mind before, when she was younger and more naive and gullible. She has lost that innocence over the years, but now that she's doing better, and that Calypso is seeing better days, Eunyoung wishes to have the rest of her career without fearing what's to come. She doesn't want to not take risks because there is no perspective of when things will change. She wants to be allowed to do all the things she couldn't do before and do her very best to thrive.

5. As a mun, if you could give your muse one piece of advice, what would it be? (110)