#ethyrcal

@ethyrcal asked: 13. [ M/F ] (jiwook @ selena)

@ethyrcal asked: “I just want to know why.” (Celine)

Hwan   looked   at   his   mother   for   a   long   moment   before   he   answered.   His   jaw   worked   once,   as   if   he   was   trying   to   find   the   version   of   the   truth   that   would   hurt   the   least.   In   the   end,   he   gave   up   looking   for   one.   There   wasn't   one.   "Because   I   got   tired."   His   voice   stayed   even,   almost   quiet   enough   that   someone   standing   outside   the   room   wouldn't   have   heard   it.   He   rubbed   the   back   of   his   neck   and   let   out   a   short   laugh   that   held   no   amusement.   "Tired   of   pretending   I   was   okay   with   always   understanding.   Tired   of   telling   myself   you   were   busy,   that   you'd   come   around   when   things   settled   down."   He   shook   his   head.   "They   never   did."   He   wasn't   angry   in   the   way   he   had   been   when   he   was   younger.   Back   then   he   would   have   shouted,   slammed   doors,   tried   to   make   enough   noise   that   she   had   no   choice   but   to   look   at   him.  

Somewhere   along   the   way,   that   anger   had   become   something   smaller   and   heavier.   It   stayed   in   his   chest   instead   of   his   throat.   "I   know   you   loved   me,   or   that   you   care   for   me."   he   continued,   meeting   her   eyes.   "I'm   not   saying   you   didn't.   But   loving   someone   and   being   there   for   them   aren't   always   the   same   thing."   His   fingers   curled   against   his   sleeve."I   watched   you   give   pieces   of   yourself   to   everyone   else   because   they   needed   you.   I   kept   telling   myself   I'd   wait   my   turn."   Another   pause.   "Eventually   I   stopped   believing   my   turn   was   ever   coming."   The   words   stung   to   say,   but   he   didn't   take   them   back.   She   had   asked   why.   For   the   first   time   since   the   conversation   began,   his   expression   softened.  

🌙 the emotional headcanon meme 🥀

Canonically we see two variations of reactions from her, both line up perfectly with her BPD.

1- She shuts down tries to pretend like it doesnt mean anything but it does. We see this when Elijah walks away from her and says good bye. She doesn't say much if anything at all just sort of shuts down for the moment. This is the rarer of the two given her petulant sub type shes more prone to number two-

2- Lashing out emotionally/aggressively. We see plenty of examples of this one. When Stefan says he hates her and she stabs him being one of the very first that comes to mind. When Damon accuses her lying and she snaps back with "Did it ever occur to you that you dont know who I am?"

This can also look like her being overly defensive Like when Elijah grills her about Elena when her humanity is off and she quickly becomes very defensive because she feels like she's not being seen/heard/understood only Elena's side is. (which is usually the case especially concerning Elijah with Klaus too)

Overly defensive or aggressive lashing out is incredibly common in BPD as a defense mechanism when it feels like you're not being heard. It's no different for Katherine Pierce she consistently exhibits this behavior when met with scrutiny of any kind. If shes not doubling down to feed her cold hearted bitch facade than she is overly defensive of everything.

If people would learn how to talk to her this wouldn't be that big an issue but here we are in the land of mystic falls where everyone personally knows better than everyone else.

@ethyrcal asked: ❛ i wish i had another choice. ❜ (Yeon)

"Right."   Despite   his   best   facade,   Rang   had   never   been   able   to   hide   well   when   he   is   hurt.   He   often   lashes   out,   deadly   so   at   times,   and   others,   he   is   more   quiet   in   is   pain.   He   hates   how   expressive   he   can   be   when   his   brother   barely   seems   to   flinch   and   he   wonders   if   this   is   his   human   nature   slipping   through   the   fox   spirit   within.   "You   always   had   a   choice.   I   was   just   never   one   for   you."   It   seems   to   be   a   constant   in   his   life   since   he   was   born.  

@ethyrcal asked: you have no idea who i am, do you? (hwayeol)

Ra-ik   pauses.   He   does   his   best   to   keep   his   expression   neutral   but   it's   hard   for   him.   He   had   never   been   one   to   keep   it   all   in,   so   the   frown   is   visible   and   his   body   instantly   tenses   up.   Too   many   things   had   been   happening   in   his   life   lately   for   him   to   just   go   around   unscathed.   "Should   I   know   who   you   are?"   The   confusion   is   visible,   the   casualness   he   had   been   displaying   until   then   is   gone   as   arms   fold   against   his   chest,   as   if   to   try   and   put   an   invisible   wall   between   himself   and   the   man.  

@ethyrcal asked: they were gonna kill me, i swear. (jongwoo & moonjo)

Eyes   glimmer   through   the   dimmed   lit   room   as   he   watches   with   fascination   the   way   Jongwoo's   minds   seems   to   work   overdrive,   trying   to   fill   in   the   blanks,   making   space   for   reason.   Would   his   mind   tell   him   it   was   never   him   who   did   such   things?   Perhaps   his   mind   would   tell   him   it   was   all   Moonjo,   a   way   to   protect   his   sanity.   But   what   he   sees   is   nothing   but   the   shattered   remains   of   a   piece   that   is   about   to   crumble   to   reveal   the   true   diamond   inside.   Fingertips   grace   over   the   others   uvula,   feeling   it   up   and   down   as   he   grabs   it.  

@ethyrcal asked: ❛ i am being perfectly fucking civil . ❜ (yeon & doyun)

"Evidence   proves   the   contrary."   Perhaps   well   deserved,   but   he   would   think   his   son   would   know   better   than   let   his   emotions   ruin   his   composture   (   then   again,   he   did   fell   for   a   human,   enough   to   risk   his   position   as   a   Mountain   God   and   work   as   a   slave   for   Taluipa   for   six   hundred   years   ).   He   steps   back,   breaking   away   from   the   grasp   Yeon   had   on   his   collar   and   adjusted   it   with   casual   ease   before   looking   around.   "A   civil   man   would   never   react   as   you   did   just   know,   son.   You   have   spent   too   much   time   with   humans   to   realize   that."

@ethyrcal asked: 1D (zhihao @ baoyu)