"okay, so, you're you. which means that mortals fall in love with you all the time because you're really cool and stylish and pretty. how do you deal with that? not the love part, i mean... i just---we blink and we blink again and then they're in the grave." or: katherine's future employee of the month is very much in love with a mortal boy and, sadly, she cannot logic her way out of it (and he's unlikely to want to be turned).
Well it's not a question she thought she'd get today.
"I have been in love three times in my life. The people that fall in love with me? They don't matter to me that much, I hate to say it. I'm not responsible for their feelings, I won't be held accountable for something I don't return. So the mortals that fall for me? I don't do anything with, because I simply don't owe them anything."
Come on now Katherine, tell her about the ones you did love.
"In 1864, I did fall in love with two mortals. I had to approach both of them very differently. One of them wanted the vampire life with me the moment he found out. The other, I had to compel the fear out of."
Katherine let out a sigh and and rolled her eyes, time to strap on the genuine advice cap.
"I made a lot of mistakes between those two, I did a lot of things that I regret in my fear during that time. I never asked one of them if they wanted to be a vampire, I assumed that they would just get over it once I turned them and we could life happy together forever. That was my mistake for a handful of reasons. One, I forgot that fate hates me and wants me to suffer, and two I hurt him and put him in a position I didn't even know was a possibility at the time."
God it hurts to admit mistakes, she doesn't like bringing the guilt she'd buried back to the surface, it's a lot harder to cope with in full swing. Katherine leaned forward to stress the next point she was about to make.
"Falling for mortals, is a dangerous game. You have to make all the right moves or you risk everything, like I did. I lost that game because I made too many mistakes in the same round." Why yes she is talking about it like a strategy game to keep herself detached from the situation to avoid a spiral, thank you for asking.
"Mortals age, you wont. Even if he agrees to be with you as a human there will be a time where it's no longer socially acceptable to be seen together. You will lose him if you don't turn him." She makes that point very clear.... and then sighed and shook her head, resigning to a notion she didn't personally like but had learned the hard way. "But it has to be his choice. Otherwise you risk him resenting you, you risk every bit of whatever love is between your two. Love can quickly be disguised with hate wrapping paper. Take it from a girl who's still trying to get out of the dog house... this has to be a desicion you both make."
"And then, as hard as it is going to be? You need to respect the choice he makes, and if it's not the one you want then you have to either let him go, or stay with him and hope that he changes his mind somewhere down the line on his own. Be better than me, Flori. I had true love and I bruised it so badly, I have to spend every single second trying to get it back. Handle it better than I did."
"Because few things are more painful than knowing someone loves you, while having to hear them spit that they don't instead."
