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THE GOLDEN BOY HAS FALLEN ⸻ INDEPENDENT,   MUTUAL   EXCLUSIVE   AND   SELECTIVE   BLOG   FOR DO RA-IK FROM IDOL I AND OTHER MIXED MEDIA ABOUT THE LIFE OF IDOLS. BASED ON THE SHOW AND HEADCANONS AND MIXED LORE. WRITTEN AND CURATED BY CALI. GMT+3.

CARRD. PROMO. GRAPHICS. HEADCANONS.

PSA: his carrd is TBA. please note that do ra-ik shows clear signs of anxiety, high functioning depression, anxiety and panic attacks as well instances of suic*dal ideation. the show also touches on the heavy subjects of murder and being falsely accused and the heavy pressure idols are under. i will not shy away from this aspect as it's part of his characterization.

THE GOLD BOYS !

@bulsoitan asked: “it could’ve been a lot worse .”

"I   made   you   follow   me   here.   Sorry   about   that."   He   didn't   really   made   anyone   do   anything.   His   first   public   appearance   at   a   fan   signing   after   the   trial   and   the   investigation   had   not   been   the   best.   Goldie   Entertainment   wanted   to   do   a   final   rounds   of   it   before   changing   companies,   so   Raik   said   he   would   do   it,   because   he   is   now   the   hyung   of   the   group   and   that   is   what   Wooseong   would   had   wanted;   for   him   taking   care   of   the   group.   He   just   didn't   counted   on   his   anxiety   to   act   up   in   front   of   the   people   backstage.  

He   managed   to   hold   on   through   the   meetings   but   once   he   was   backstage,   he   had   struggle   to   focus   anywhere,   eyes   lost,   the   sensation   of   the   room   being   too   small   and   too   big   at   the   same   time   and   that   ringing   on   his   ear.   Jay   had   helped   him   get   the   bottle   with   his   prescription   pills   for   emergencies   ,   and   now   he   was   finally   calmer,   focusing   on   the   cold   drip   of   water   from   the   bottle   he   was   holding   against   his   face.

@florietiae asked: a list of casual yet intimate interactions. [ LISTEN ] sender is listening to receiver talk and picks up an object that belongs to receiver to fidget with. / from jinu.

Raik   is   not   sure   what   exactly   he   is   rambling   about.   He   thinks   it's   about   the   upcoming   album   and   tour   now   that   the   band   was   out   of   Goldie   Entertainment   and   his   name   has   been   cleared,   the   days   seem   a   little   brighter   than   before.   Or   maybe   it's   the   alcohol   (   he   did   promise   to   cut   it   out   for   a   while,   considering   he   is   still   on   his   meds,   and   the   nightmares   haven't   really   stopped   ).   It's   just   easy   to   let   himself   ramble   around   Jinu   when   it's   just   usually   difficult   for   him   to   do   that   with   other   people.   Wooseong   was   the   one   person   he   had   in   his   life   that   had   let   him   open   up   like   this   and   never   judge   him   in   return.