Most of anything else, Adam is my favourite character from Sex Education because he's... me. I can see a lot of myself in Adam, especially in season 2. And obviously, obviously he is far from perfect, but that is exactly why I need him to do and be better going forward. This sinking feeling that I can see myself in him started back in season 2 when he was visibly conflicted about his sexuality and the entire situation with Eric, on top of everything else. And then, when I see this character, who is introverted to hell and back, who acts out and has trouble understanding his own feelings, when I see him finally have someone who likes him for him, when I see him gaining some clarity and seeing something that he wants, and when I see him actually going after it, I can't help but tear up, feeling a little part of my soul shake in amazement.
I've always yearned for love, wondering what it would be like to have someone to be in a relationship with. I've searched for it in all the wrong places so far, all because I didn't know myself, I just knew what I was supposed to want, and I thought I knew how to go after it.
Now, seeing someone who's emotionally in the trenches, someone who's at war with themselves and feeling so lonely while they're in it, seeing them emerge with a newfound clarity and the courage to go after the person they want, even if they are risking their entire heart breaking into pieces... I can't help but be in awe of that. And I can't, I can't distance myself completely, I can't not have hope for Adam and his new relationship with Eric. I just want my boys to be happy, together or apart. Just... happy. For once.
