Hey random prompt time! Sparrow, needle, wind
Grief. For Théodwyn, it was a familiar face. From her father and the grandmother she loved above all, to the childhood friend she'd lost to sickness - grief had taken many forms. But for all its familiarity, when it knocked on her door now, there was no strength left in Théodwyn to weather it. How could she? For this time, grief had not sent a letter of its impending visit beforehand. There was no old age or sickness to herald its arrival. It had come unannounced and unwelcome, and Théodwyn had been unprepared for the upheaval it would cause in her life.
Death had been swift for Éomund, they said. He did not suffer, by Bema's grace. But Théodwyn selfishly thought that at least then she would have known to ready herself for his departure from the living world. Had he lain on his deathbed for days, she could have survived somehow. But just as Éomund had taken an arrow and fallen off his horse, so had Théodwyn's heart. And no matter if the people around rushed to help, it had been too late. Éomund was dead and Théodwyn's will to live had died with him.
It wasn't easy to witness, she knew. For her children and all her household, and even her brother in his Golden Hall, it must have been agony to see her wither away in front of their eyes. To see the light in her eyes dimming, as if the stars which decorated them had faded away to make way for the dawn. A dawn which will never come. To hear her laughter be silenced, leaving behind only the deep grooves it'd carved on her face. Grooves which are flooded with her tears now.
"I'm sorry," Théodwyn whispered, as she sat gazing into the distance on the terrace in Aldburg. The shirt she had been mending was long forgotten in her lap. It had been Éomund's. And he might have taken it with him on that fateful orc raid. Might have even died in it, had it not been for her forgetting to mend it on time. Éomund never did like anyone else touching his things except her. And when her stitches came out crooked on occasion, he would laugh and say it was a reminder for him - that he could falter in his footing but always had to get the job done. Just like his beloved's sewing.
"I'm sorry," she repeated, but to whom she apologized, Théodwyn knew not. Was it to him? Or to her loved ones still left alive? Or was it to the sparrow that sat on the balustrade, waiting for the birdseed which Théodwyn would have brought out any other time, as usual. But not today. Not anymore.
A sudden gust of wind threw her mantle off her shoulders, but strangely Théodwyn did not feel the cold. Not really. Perhaps it was the heaviness that had settled in her soul, but all she could feel was a bone-deep weariness. And Even that weariness was overwhelming for her frail body.
It was afternoon now, and maybe, it wasn't so late to take the rest her handmaiden had suggested, before Théodwyn had insisted on sitting out in the light to finish the mending she should have done long ago. Maybe she could rest her eyes for a bit. Do the mending later, pick up where she had left off. Just for an hour or two. She would see better then. Her hands would shake less after. And perhaps, she might even feel a bit more. It'll be alright.
Lady Théodwyn would later be found by her handmaiden, serene in death, the wind blowing her golden hair around like a banner. Her hand would be clutching her husband's shirt, the needle still threaded through, stuck inside the stitch it never completed. The sparrow would be long gone, the last being to see her alive. It would never return to that terrace again.