I don't know what I thought was going to happen, but... I figured it would at least be something. Feels like I've been here for weeks and no threats, no sign of Alex anywhere, just... nothing. I don't know, maybe he's waiting on me to do something stupid. Seems like every time I feel like I understand how all this works, something else happens. I mean I thought the safest thing to do would be to leave Jay here when I went off to the school, and even that didn't work out. Why am I the only one that's still here? I don't want to be by myself again. This has been bad enough. I thought about buying a gun the other day, but... I'm glad I didn't. I wouldn't trust myself around one of those anyway. Alex is probably out there somewhere right now, watching me. Him waiting on me and me waiting on him. One of us is going to have to do something eventually. If he thinks I'm going to be in here, maybe I can be somewhere else. Yeah. Yeah, that'll work. I should've started talking to myself sooner.
(Tim Wright, MH e#85)
